a few more days till 18

recently piles of things have been going on, which made me wonder whether i really have the capability to continue on, living each day like this.

ive just finished writing two proposals for both the miyazaki and hokkaido camp, and have just decided to join in the press conference this february. i dont even know what made me do it, but yes i did it. i dont know why, dont ask.

its like with school work, gems and CCA, everything's been off my head, and i've only been in school for a week - a day. my only point of relaxation is that i get to see him everyday. its like a calming point. i know that to a certain extent some people aren't comfortable with it yet, nor will they ever will be, and some things just make it seem that nothing's going to make it any better, so ive given up bothering about it.

now thinking back, im wondering if agreeing to the press conference is a good idea. with all the pros and cons to it, i dont know what's going to go on now. especially with two teams with CLEARLY DIFFERENT IDEAS working together, its hard to get a common understanding especially when one clearly cannot work with at least 3 of us up to date.

maybe im just being overboard, but i cant help but feel that sometimes these things arent worth thinking about. many people have told me this, and i feel i should finally believe them.

as soon as my birthday comes, and i get enough money from it, im going on a heavenly shopping spree to get my mind off these little things. i shall go spoil myself for a day to forget about these hassles of life.

until then, i'll wait it out. i have a lot of things to do. mile gathering etc etc. =p cant wait for it to come. ^^

side note to the owner of the bear bear, my "mei" found out too.

now very full. shall go to bathe. =D ja ne~

yume no naka e

aru ite.. doko made mo.

Takahashi Hinoki

first day of school

today school started. its still usual.. except with the difference of janice's absence. its kinda different, but still its school.

oddly enough, school was more boring than its ever been. ive already skipped one class. im going to keep track on it, to make sure that my LOA and what-nots are not going to waste. =)

nothing exceptional happened during the school days, except for the exception of "miami MICE" as xiuzhi would have put it, which janice then further changed to "my yummy mice".

today i felt i was being slightly unreasonable for certain reasons, and i dont even know why i was. im sorryyy. i really am.

i still find it hard to believe that mrs lim found out about it so soon.. but then again it was bound to happen. janice says its a good thing: i dont know why.. one day i shall get her to explain it to me. =)

gomenasai.. honto ni.

because i cant let you go.

Takahashi Hinoki

welcome me my bolster

just came back from LTC. feel like phyllis after she came back from myanmar. though a cruise and a chalet-like room isnt exactly the definition of "uncivilised", i missed my bolster!!! =P plus i was sick half the time, so it really wasn't as enjoyable as it could have been.

we boarded SSV (super star virgo), and had dinner at bella vista. started off with some tuna cheese thing, and then the soup, which jimmy christianed asparagus soup, then the main course, a choice between beef and fish. aloysius, nick and i picked the beef, while jimmy and kaifon ate the wonderfully small piece of meat that was known as fish. after that, we had desert.. which was this wonderfully designed cake with a chocolate bit on top! =D then we went for briefing.. boring. heard it three times xD.

we then went snorkling the next day. kaifon couldn't swim, so i basically dragged him back and forth around the current. that's when we bumped into.. mrs lim. yes quite amazed that she could swim!

anyway, at redang, i fell sick, so i didnt play too many games except the last one, which was like amazing race redang. the most ridiculous clue was this: Sharks at the Bay: hard rock says "i love redang". we searched for a plaque that said that, only to find that it was chalk "graffitti" on a rock... very blur.

i met my hyper roommates, joanne, chris and siusiu. really nice people. i made connections with them, especially siusiu, who knew xiao ran, alvin and kah fei.

then we took the bus back. our bus uncle was mimicking initial d, driving the bus to the maximum, not stopping for anything or anyone. it shot across roads, weaving in and out on single lanes. amazing driver. we ended up reaching at least 1/2 hr before the other three buses.

yes then i got home. now very sleepy. talking to sze.. going to bed soon as soon as i have some supper. super star virgo wasn't as glamourous as i thought it was. we met some japanese people, and they seemed to recognise us when we walked past them: probably because we were wearing the same blue shirts, where they were wearing their same orange outfits.

back from the boat

now tired and want to sleep

Takahashi Hinoki

LTC for the last time

in a few hour's time i'll be leaving to japan. yeah i wish. no actually i'll be leaving to have dinner with the principal and to rest during a cruise. yeaaaah ok thats half true. truth is i'll be going for LTC. its like training, only worse. only consolation is that my friends will be there with me. but first, i have to get down with the gems. =D hehehe. ^^see you guys~

hey phyphy i saw your msg. thanks. =) glompy!!! =D

tomorrow i wont be around

but i will be in spirit.

Takahashi Hinoki

tomorrow's another day

ive finally finished packing my luggage. tomorrow's LTC. =) then its back to school. this holiday was jam packed with activities, but its been fulfilling, for many reasons. now im watching amazing race 10.. interesting. feels like its more competitive. oh well.

hm.. im still running on lack of sleep. i guess i'd take an early night tonight. ^^

LTC's feeling very odd right about now.. i mean, it doesnt sound as bad as eugene's. it just feels like one big camp. the itinery is basically the same as miyazaki and any other predeparture camps that we've done.. learning to work together, learning to do stuff together.. weirdddddd.. well at least its not free labor, like eugene says. =)

guess you can also say that im feeling slightly hypocritical. i know im being silly, but i feel that way. its hard to act normal when everyone around you is saying things that either do not make sense or its just mean. i dont intend to say who or what words have been mentioned, because it serves no direct purpose. but it just feels odd.. i guess you can say that. i suppose i'd get used to it.. but not anytime soon. =)

one more day left

tomorrow is another day

Takahashi Hinoki

more quizzes for me to doooo

1. Initials
yjy (th)

2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
ashley simpson

3. Favorite fruit?
hm.. papaya?

4. For or against same sex marriage?
neither. its up to them.

5. Are you allergic to anything?
yep. smoke and alchohol =D

6. Are you bisexual?
definitely not

7. Have you ever slept in someone else's clothes?
no.

8. How many U.S. states have you been to?
none at all.

9. How many of the U.S. states have you lived in?
none definitely.

10. Have you ever lived outside the US?
does singapore count? singapore and japan. assuming live meaning in a house and not hotel.

11. Name something physical you like about yourself.
my fingers. =D hahaha. dunno it reminds me of japanese anime fingers.

12. Name something non-physical you like about yourself.
bouncy i guess. the ability to be utterly silly.

13.Do you have any pets?
used to.. not anymore.

14. What is your dream car?
mazda. any series. possibly the rx series.

15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
japan. anywhere that has a different culture. but not china, or korea.

16. Are you bipolar?
sometimes. when people try to screw my timing up.

17. Who is the last person you spoke to?
kaifon

18. Where would you want to go on a first date?
anywhere as long as the scenery is nice. i cant resist nature xD

19. Would you date the person who posted this before you?
no. definitely not. i do not want to date felicia. x_X

20. Has anyone ever sang or performed for you personally?
yes.

21. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
fireworks. no. bad timing.xD

22. Do you like president Bush?
dont really know enough about him to make an opinion.

23. Have you ever bungee jumped?
no. want to try though.

24. Have you ever white water rafted?
yes. once.

25. Has anyone 5 years older than you ever hit on you?
erm. haha. yes.

26. Are you racist?
sometimes. not so much towards the skin color, but its towards the attitude that comes with it.

27. What song are you listening to right now?
M.O.V.E - Noizy Tribe

28. What's your favorite song at the moment?
fast paced - DtecnoLife, UVERworld
slow paced - Rain, Koda Kumi

29. What was the last movie you watched?
potc 2 i think.

30. Where was the last place you went besides your workplace or home?
pasir ris chalet.

31. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
nope.

32. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
i think so, yes.

33. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
like i said, that they're not female. duh~~

34. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
anything but the coffee.

35. Say something totally random about yourself.
im falling asleep..

36. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
no. and good thing too.

37. Are you single?
good question. 1.5.

38. Do you wish you were somebody else?
no. im myself and im glad to be.

39. How tall are you?
166? 168? hm..

40. Do you speak any other language other than English?
very little chinese, quite a lot of japanese.

41. Have you ever ridden in a Limo?
no

42. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?
no

43. Do you watch tv?
yes.

44. What's something that really annoys you?
noise.

45. What are some things you really like?
fantasy images, nature, wings.

46. Do you like Michael Jackson?
no.

47. Have you ever surfed?
only the internet.

48. Do you know how to pump gas?
dont have a car, dont need to know yet.

49. What do you drive?
in my dreams, mazda rx7, purple color, FC3S

50. What's the latest you have ever stayed out?
without overnight, about 1am.

51. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
yes. many times.

52. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
no. but i have been rushed to hospital, just not in ambulance.

53. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do?
yes.

54. What's your favorite state to live in?
not US.

55. What color is your hair?
about dark reddish brown right now

56. What colour are your eyes?
dark brown too.

57. Favorite non-alcoholic drink?
fruit juice =)

chalet chalet

hahaha. we had a great day at the chalet. pigging out and eating a lot of rubbish. for the pics, go to the link that's at the side, under.. special days. =) well.. lets see. we went to take a lot of pictures, because the scenery was beeeautttiiifuuulll. then we barbequed... played on the swings and all. i loved that day.

unfortunately, the next day i had to go to school for LTC training.. in the end sat there for 4 hours listening to NO apologies workshop. utterly useless if you ask me. =( but the rest was more or less ok. even though now im really confused xD

then i went back, ate some maggie mee, and went cycling. it doesnt look interesting cos im not putting the pictures here: its too many to put.

just got back slightly after 1.. had a short conversation with kaifon, before deciding that im gonna took my own dinner. yes im cooking xD amazing ne?

one very tiring day

ltc, one last thing to go

Takahashi Hinoki

chalet time

well. im supposed to be on the way to a chalet right about now, but as you can probably see, im nowhere near there. actually im still at home. yep waiting for janice to call before making my way there via taxi. this time, for once i wont be able to stay the full length of the chalet, though im gonna be rushing back and forth the whole time.

i have about 4 bags to carry. have no idea whatsoever as to how im gonna manage everything there. ah well. one step at a time.

quite looking forward to the barbequing, even though im really sick. i especially cant wait to meet phyphy. havent seen her in sooooo long.. i wan hug the koala bear. =)

ok i better go call janice before i change my mind and not go, and not going would mean that they have no food xD im a mean person. hahaha. ^^

be back soon

dont worry about me

Takahashi Hinoki

today is another day

today ne. woke up at around 6am. went blading with xiuzhi. actually we walked more than we bladed. like we said, it seemed as though everytime im with xiuzhi, it requires a lot a lot of walking. sadly. now i cant feel my feet.

xiuzhi progressed well in blading, at least she could walk on her own after a while, which was better than the wobbly beginning she started with. after about 1 hour i sat on the table for a rest, while she continued on skating.

we were half scouting for the barbeque pit too. note guys, if you read this before the 12th. beware: the pit is quite far.

the other half was spent walking back and forth, wondering where the other shop was. apparently all the shops were closed down, so we had to use that old uncle's shop. =( but it was a nice, younger uncle.

then afterward ne, kaifon met me at kovan, to help me carry stuff. =) arigatou~ then afterward, he sent me near my house, before walking home. then he realised he was a little too early.. so he went home xD then i went to unpack my stuff and watch some television. =)

forgetting something is one thing

remembering only the good memories is another

Takahashi Hinoki

more things to look forward to!

today i realised that i havent gone to buy chalet stuff. OOPS! thats really sad. now i have to chiong. i just realised chalet is on tuesday!!! ahhhh.. that means school starting soon. really really really sad. still got to somehow juggle LTC and chalet at the same time. no idea how im going to do it. ahh well.

now everything's cropping up again. AH must remind eugene tomorrow he need to go school! crap he not online. NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! =( now i got to call him T_T nooooooooo... my phone bill!!!

today have to sleep early, meeting xiuzhi for her crash course blading 101 tomorrow. hopefully i can stay awake xD

hai hai. ok time to go to bed!!! oyasumi!

tomorrow's another day

till then

Takahashi Hinoki

dont give up

this is a weird scenario that im mentioning below.

my sis has been constantly failing her A maths, so my mom hired my past tutor. however, after about 1 year with him, she's still failing. im pretty sure that its due to personal issues and reasons that she cant manage the teacher.

however, she's trying to tell my parents that she wants to try without a maths tutor now that she's failing. thats sounds really ludacris to me, honestly. she's in sec 3 now, and if she fails her maths, she might very well be retained. its honestly not the right year to test her wonderful skills.

these are the arguments:

1) because i have a tutor, i dont pay attention in class, having the mindset that he would teach me

2) i want to be independent and believe in myself

these are the same arguments i have made time and again, and im sure in my heart its not going to work. its the same arguments that everyone makes when they dont want a tutor. i believe that it has nothing to do with the tutor's capabilities, because he pulled me up from a score of 19 to a distinction. its only that every time i see her in tution class, she's either not paying attention or not bothering to really listen. both my tutors have agreed that she and i are not the same when it comes to tution: i for one dont move around too much.

now she just got out of the house. reallllllly thats not going to work. family argument taking place outside, and im peacefully hiding in my room, doing absolutely nothing to help her. because honestly, i dont believe her statements. i know in times like these sisters are supposed to stand by each other. but i feel that if i do support her, its only going to have a bad toll on her studies. im not supporting her because i do believe that by doing so she will have progress. they say sometimes you have to hurt the ones you love. i very dearly want to help her, and stand by her side, but i know that once she fails maths, its more or less over. if she fails a maths, she wont be able to take it next year. i wonder if she knows that...

she's going kill the argument. this argument that's going on right now wont take long. its the same sentence that she's repeating. i dont want to get myself involved in this one argument because it will just turn sour, and she probably needs someone to complain to later.

i wait for another day

to mention what's going on

Takahashi Hinoki

byebye to sze!

hms. today was an odd day. dont really know what happened, and due to certain reasons i dont think its a good idea to say it here, now. maybe some other time.

kaifon met me near my house, where we walked to the foodcourt to get food to eat, before heading to the hair salon. i finally dyed my hair. and managed to prevent kaifon from taking a photo during ungraceful moments.

we then toured the world. no actually we started at kovan, headed to sengkang. kaifon bought me the gooey stuff for my throat. havent put it in the fridge yet though.

kaifon and i went to his place afterward, to get his father's car.. of which i must add that i refused to enter the house xD

then we drove there. kaifon drove, as he said, lorry style.

we then went to send szeyuan off with kaifon and eugene. szeyuan was so happy to see us. no im kidding. had some food with the guys (rajan, alvin, kah fei, lionel, sze, eugene and kaifon), then they left. kaifon and i then continued on our journey around T1 and T2.

afterward, he sent me home, and here i am. =)

you might notice that this post is slightly shorter and lacking in material, but that's done for a purpose. like i said in the beginning, its best for now, not to write too much.

how should i be feeling?

happy, i guess. still somewhat stunned

Takahashi Hinoki

another weird quiz!

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.NO CHEATING!4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.
5. Bold the questions and answers that swack.

How are you feeling today? Everyday - DNAngel
guess this means i feel the same as any other day xD

Will you get far in life? candy - koda kumi
hm... cant think of an explanation for this one.

How do your friends see you? the meaning of peace - BoA and Koda Kumi
yes im the peacemaker~~~ hahahahaa.

Will you get married? Pain Love - BoA
yes? no? your choice to decide. either means yes, but v painful, or no altogether. xD

What is your best friend's theme song? Tobira o Akate (open the door) -card captor sakura
wow. my best friend (whoever it is) is really open. xD

What is the story of your life? Merry Christmas - BoA
yes my life is christmas all year round!!! wooo!!!

What was high school like? Two of a kind - Rurouni Kenshin
two of a kind, huh? means either i found a partner like me, or a friend similar to me. either way works xD

How can you get ahead in life? Harmonia - Naruto
by keeping harmony within ourselves in life xD

What is the best thing about your friends? Aoi Arashi (blue storm) - Fushigi Yuugi
hm.. this has no link whatsoever.

What is in store for this weekend? I kiss - BoA
okkkkayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... thats oddly specific. =X

What song describes you? fight for your love tonight - Initial D
well.. more or less accurate. the fighting part anyway xD

To describe your grandparents? Kakashi's Theme - Naruto
hahaa yes my grandparents are so cute they match kakashi's theme!!! =D (p.s., its the stupid theme that always plays when he does something stupid)

What song will they play at your funeral? Beside you - BoA
guess it means i will have good friends at my funeral.. I DONT WANNNA DIEEEE

How does the world see you? Arigatou ga fukaku naru (thank you takes on a deeper meaning)
hm... does this mean the world will thank me?

Will you have a happy life? Jirenma - Initial D (Dilenma)
okkkkkkkay guess thats a no.

What do your friends really think of you? La la la love song - BoA
they love me. aw so sweet

Do people secretly lust after you? Lords of the Sea - Morningstar
explain this to me, someone?

How can I make myself happy? Grip - some anime i forgot already...
hm. guess this means holding on tightly to smth.

What should you do with your life? Snow White - BoA
GO SEE SNOW! yes i shall do that.

Will you ever have children? Attack - Fushigi Yuugi
hm. guess this is a yes? well beats other songs, like "max power - initial d". that would just be weeeirrrdddd.

rantings of an idiot

you know how it is when you're sick: you desperately want rest and peace, and something soothing for your throat. but for the past two days, i never got any of that.

i had to do the laundry for my mom, because she was sick. i had to do the dishes for my sister, because she was sick. and ive been eating nothing but bad food, because my parents are forcing me to.

it's obvious, at least to me, that i was the sickest, (sorry my brain not working, so english a little tweaked) but no one seemed to notice that i was sick, or that i was having my holidays. can't blame them: i've been in school almost everyday.

peace and quiet..

onegai..

Takahashi Hinoki

ntn better to do, ne?

Names You Go By:
1. Hinoki
2. Alex
3. Jing
4. Snakey
5. "that one"

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. clothes
2. glasses

Two Things You Would Want in a Relationship:
1. love
2. sincerity

Your Favorite Things to do:
1. stone and melt somewhere
2. walk around aimlessly
3. stare blankly and admire nature at its work
4. write

Two Things You Want Really Badly At The Moment:
1. my puzzle!!!
2. himitsu...

Two pets you had/have:
1. bunnies~!!! (RIP: lightning, patches)
2. tortoises

Two people who will fill this out:
1. dunno
2. DUNNOOO

Two things you did last night:
1. go out with kaifon
2. go out with trix and diane

Two People that live in your house:
1. mom
2. dad

Two things you ate today:
1. potatooooooooo
2. peas

Two people you Last Talked To:
1. kaifon
2. mom

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. meet kaifon and go dye hair
2. find sze at airport and send her off

Two longest car rides:
1. travelling in car around miyazaki
2. from singapore to KL

Two Favorite Holidays:
1. christmas
2. any school holiday

Two favorite Alcoholic beverages:
1. allergic
2. nv drink before.

Two favourite Colors:
1. purple
2. blue

interesting quizzy

i finally did this SB quiz today. this was my result. bolded are those that i think are accurate.

You live life through communication and expression, both in actions and spoken words. Being perceptive, you are adept at understanding people’s motivations and fears. This allows you to bring out the best in an individual and facilitate the development of his/her potential. You rate integrity and sincerity highly in your relationships. Being imaginative and inventive (i am???), you are unafraid to discover possibilities and undergo new experiences. But these must be consistent with your beliefs to contribute to the betterment of mankind. You hold firm beliefs and are courageous in expressing yourself with a personal touch. You are talented in communicating your views and are skilled in persuading and influencing even those who hold different views. You desire to be appreciated (very true)and also freely express your appreciation of others. Having good capabilities, organizational skills and the ability to make long-term plans, you make motivational leaders and trustworthy followers. (not really hahaha)

Potential Strengths
Can get things organised
Ability to develop human resources
Skilled at building consensus
People skills
Energy & enthusiasm

Popular Occupations
Sales trainer
Travel agent
Sales manager
Human resource development trainer
Dietician/ nutritionist
Minister/ priests (riiiight)
Teachers (heath/art/drama/English)
Actors and entertainers
Writers and artists
Consultants
Newscaster

hm... relatively true i think. what u guys think?

some times i notice i dont recognise myself

its like a different person i see in the mirror

Takahashi Hinoki

dark assassin is sickkk...

tomorrow kanazawa people are leaving. i wish them the best journey ahead, and hope that their intensive "camp" helped in any way. lets hope they don't flop in japan for their farewell. or people will blow their top~

anyway... still got about 3 hours of quarrantined time left before i can go out. im sure if i go out nw, a lot of people will give me a lecture on why i should stay at home. and since im more or less getting better, i guess its ok for me to start running around again. but i'll take this time to rest (both my leg and body).

phyphy is in singapore already. wonder if she's tired. maybe i'll go give her a call later. hm..

until tomorrow

i'll hang on with everything i have

Takahashi Hinoki

flu and cold

today was fulfilling. started off sick, so didnt intend to leave house, but in the end i went to taka with trixia and diane. miss those guys loads. diane and i went to see gowns for her prom. then after that, i met kaifon, and we walked back to suntec to take a bus home. he accompanied me home, then afterward, got lost. from what i heard. =X told him he would. dont believe me.

hai. getting really sick. my nose feels like a tap... one who's knob is stuck. my throat feels like i swallowed a durian whole, hurts with each swallow. didnt eat dinner, because i had no apetite. went straight home after a walk from taka to suntec.

i promised kaifon i'd stay home for the next 24 hours to recuperate. so im not sure whether i can go to fetch phyphy back from the airport tomorrow. i think i'll see my condition tomorrow. if its better than i'd go and look for her.

today's probably one of those days when i reached home really early: i was home at about 10 pm. quite amazing really, seeing that i love to stay out as late as possible.

well im too tired to write anymore, so until tomorrow~ ja!

there once was a fairytale

that i wish i could have been a part of

Takahashi Hinoki

s.u.n.t.e.c

hm.... i shall update for the past two days.

yesterday:

went with kaifon and eugene to... TADAAA SUNTEC!!! WOOO BIG SURPRISE! hm. nothing much went on. nothing i intend to write anyway. kaifon wanted to send us home, but dad gave me a ride, which was a good thing seeing eugene reached home at about 1am. i was comfortably in bed by then.

anyway, we waited for rongshen to knock off work, before going to starbucks to get a drink. nothing much of interest that day, nothing i intend to write, like i said earlier. got an early night and then went to bed.

today:

went for MILE and HIROSHIMA. mile did fairly well during the review. it was almost a perfect run, except for a few mistakes that they managed to cover up fairly well. however, for the hiroshima, they screwed up so badly i felt like i was going to be grilled on the stake. hiroshima people put up a relatively okay performance, whose plot was very similar to ours.

after that eugene and i went to collect the table for our club house... which ended up in me refurbishing the clubhouse. now... it looks like THIS:

much better than it was before, don't you think? now there's a lot of space~~~ WOOO!!!

after that ne... went... guess where? ok suntec in the end, but first we went cine. NOT SUNTEC!!! =D hehehe. erms. ate burger king.. talked about some stuff. yep thats about it. im too tired to recall exactly what happened (or rather there are some things that need not be said). maybe when im more awake. =) till then, good night~

one more day passes by

but today, on a more positive note

Takahashi Hinoki

woozy

wow today im seriously tired. went to suntec again. its become my second home, apparently. since im too tired to write another long long essay on it, im just going to write the lowdown basic information on it before i forget.

eugene and kaifon went with me, as usual. dont know why we went. i went cos, basically i couldn't go home as dad's friends were at home. yepyep. in the end, we walked from HM.. lets see.. far east to suntec. these are the few keywords i've learnt today..

From Eugene:1) he can move a chair at suntec. like the heavy ones.
2) he bites really really really hard
3) kaifon is tasty. wait. he told me that before.
4) when he says "don't put words in my mouth", it sounds like "don't put tadpoles in my mouth"
5) eugene cant stand it when i poke him. note: good way to make him tell you things.From

Kaifon:
1) BANKAI
2) REIATSU
3) SPG (i finally found out what it means, eugene!!!)
4) "VITAMINS"
5) rain falls because some guy he doesn't like keeps talking
6) kaifon cant stand it when i stone. note: good way to make him say "okok i tell you" but takes a few shots before he actually tells you.
7) poking might result in bankai. not sure yet. have to do more extensive research on this.
8) hm. brain kind of lagging right now. cant remember. let me think.. nope totally no recollection.

anyway, went to visit red underwear again. big surprise there. becoming a habit already, i guess. oh wellies. nothing much to do at suntec anyway.

mile went relatively well, seeing that there finally was progress. its not likely that they can finish perfectly by wednesday, but with luck, close to it. hopefully they're ready by then.

back to suntec. lets see.. kaifon threatened me when i poked him. haha. not really a threat but.. heh heh heh.

dinner. lets see. i ate. hm. wow. brain really froze up on me. gahhhhh. not good. OH YAH i ate that rice thing. some japanese food. kaifon's idea.

realised that i met a lot of his friends recently. hm. quite amazing really. its not my fault he has so many friends who frequent orchard road. ahh well.

tomorrow i'll probably be at orchard again: kaifon wants to watch the lion jump and dragon dance. unless it rains.

woo. my eyes are seeing stars. HOSHI~~~ wooooo. im getting really woozy now. though my brain is still wondering how so many of kaifon's friends know me when i barely recognise them.. with the exception of rong shen.. i see him too often. i.am.not.good.with.names. =P

P.S. xiuxiu u want send phyphy home? i mean from the airport? =) i wan gooo.. we can meet for dinner than go or smth? =)

yep thats it for today~ really full and starting to feel fat again. =( diet time!!! ^^

happy days lurk ahead

it does not do good to lurk on the past.

Takahashi Hinoki

status: revived

after taking a nice nature skate around my house and thinking through stuff, i began to realise what a silly post the last one is. i mean, sure my dad said that if i could live without him, then i could. fineee.. singapore law doesn't allow that though. anyway...

i took a short but quick blade around the house, watching the moon and misty clouds, while pondering to myself many many questions. after playing catch with the wind and watching stars play hide and seek, i found myself calm and at peace with the world again. quite amazing how mother nature can do that to me. ^^ i guess its a good thing: because ive found my stress relief.

like kaifon said "no place like a 4th floor home with no lift"... i guess you can say that's KINDA true.

anyway, i spent the day with sandy, the morning anyway. we ate sushi and drank aloe vera before she went off to meet trees. so then i went home. then THAT happened. haiii. oh well. anyway i feel a lot better after a cold shower and now i feel really silly about the last msg. xD ignore that if you read this, okay?

feels like life has started anew

nature's gift, i guess

Takahashi Hinoki

status: unrevived

this might very well be the last time you see me blogging from the comforts of the place i used to call home. im sick and tired of living each day in this house, like a roller coaster going up and down. one moment im a ghost, and another im "the other one". ive been chased out before, but this might very well be the first time im going to run away from home.

it doesn't feel right to come back to a place, only to have been told off, without so much as a "how are you" since the past few days. no the first thing i had to hear was a "why didnt you do this". its not that its unreasonable: reason has nothing to do with it. its just beginning to feel that this place has become less and less like my home.

they say home is somewhere you can turn to when you need help, but this feels more like a prison, keeping me from the outside world. i dont understand exactly what my life holds, but if this is the final result that im going to have to live with for the rest of my life, than forget it. im better off alone.

i know at this point people would tell me parents are like this, this is what they do. they aren't angry at me and they wont be for long. i tried to believe it, i really tried. but it has already come to a point of time where trying doesnt make a difference: the emotional roller coaster in this household is really too much to bear.

are they really so ignorant of my life, you ask? well let's see... they have no idea im having holidays now... and they aren't even aware that i finished my exams. my mom's actually still trying to convince me to study... oh well.

anyway, like i said earlier, this might very well be the last time i call this place my home. im beginning to feel less and less wanted here. i don't know how long more i can hold on, and im really trying the best i can not to make matters any worse than they've already become.

im letting it all go

just to live another day

Takahashi Hinoki

esplanade

hm... today was an odd day. i went against my morals to go for a lucky draw. the truth was, the prizes tempted me too much to resist. SONY VIDEOCAM~~~ butttt anywayyy. i didnt intend on going out today, to rest and recuperate for the next week of hectic planning and shopping with the NUXE ppl~ weee!!! but since the prize was something i wanted, i decided to go down and take a look.

today was realllyyy hot. ATSUI!!!! i took a cab there and back, seeing that i had no time. didn't win anything, not really a surprise, so came back. now deciding what to eat for lunch. maggie mee will make me fatter. no way. i shall starrrrvvveeeeee. =)

sleepy so im going back to bed

goodnight/day. depending on when you read this.

Takahashi Hinoki

once in a life timetime

another day for MILE programme. today most of us nearly blew up top because they weren't making any remarkable progress. kaifon was feeling literally pissed off at them... sze nearly blew her top... keyword being enarly.. and eugene... well it's eugene.

anyway after the japanese lesson, we proceeded to rehearse, though they were at least 20 minutes late. main issue was that the song was finished... and after that... the song was practiced. eugene and i kinda crapped our way through because we didnt know tamil... so we just wrote what it sounded like and let them follow from that... it came out to be something like japanese... hahahaha

anyway after that we did a debriefing... told them that they were late. i wanted to mention that their priorities weren't right, but then i decided that it was a little too late anyway... so i didn't say anything during the debriefing.

then... erms ok eugene told me not to mention it... but i shall anyway...

ok no i shall not, or eugene would kill me xD. especially after i killed him so that he could tell me what he meant that day. in the end, it was just what nicholas already said that exact same day. noo progress.

anyway after that sze and i went home... called wenda leong but no progress was made. so sadly.

for once i feel relatively happy

in a sense i cannot explain.

Takahashi Hinoki