Feb 27, 2008

since xiu asked me to write an entry before i go, i shall.

^^ im kinda glad to be leaving, still once again it began to... become a little bittersweet. =) hahahaha. i cant wait to see yuka. i'll try my best to update as much as i can. so keep reading!

Feb 22, 2008

i dont know why but im very depressed today. went for a movie with my parents... but i started crying on the way home. i really dont know why i started crying.. maybe a mixture of a lot of things... maybe just... to get myself up and running again.

i guess i've seen a lot of things, thought of a lot of things today.

someone once told me that i treated my friends very well. that i was always concerned about them... that i always thought about my friends before myself. i think its because... when i see someone upset, i want to make that person feel better. as long as that person is of something to me, i would go to the extents of the world to do something for her/him.

i realise its not because im concerned, because im nice. simply... its because i knew that if it were me in those shoes, i would want someone to do something for me. i treat people simply because i want to be treated that same way. i guess when you put it in those terms, its selfish.. haha.

a few days ago i was talking to a friend about how different parents tend to treat the first born than compared to the 2nd born. i started off being jealous over my sister, but after talking it through, i realised that my standpoint changed, and in the end, i feel i like who i am. yes, my sis gets the physical perks of whatever i get despite being younger, but because of that i can see some things in a bigger point of view.

yes and somehow, i thought through all these things while i was crying.. that was 1/2 an hour ago. and now that my mind is much better, i can feel better to.

Post note:

BYE BYE GORDON~! GOOD LUCK IN AUS!

Feb 19, 2008

yuka just emailed me the cutest picture ever!


That's my hosts' dog, Rena. Cute, isnt she? I miss Rena and Eru. hopefully when i go there its still snowing. it looks like rena's having a lot of fun in the snow! I also want... hahaha. according to yahoo its actually not snowing anymore, except once in a few days. the day i land its going to be about 5 deg. thats better than freezing cold. xD but i want to see snow. hahahaha.

OMG I FINALLY FOUND A FEMALE HOST! im happy. =D

Feb 18, 2008

well since phy asked and im sure ALL of u want to know (yeah im sure you do)... my flight details are as follows.

flying on the 27th of february, at night, approx 11pm. means i'll be at airport at approx 8.30 to 9pm. Its at T3. dont know what belt though.

return is .. even funnier. its on the 11th of march, at... DA DA DA DA!!! 1am!!! haahahahahaa!

p.s. thanks phyphy for the comment. made me feel better. =)

Feb 16, 2008

i guess since all the girls are posting about chalet i think i shall too.

i think all of us noticed that it was not the same as the previous few: not so action packed and dramatic, but more mellow.

even the nights seemed quieter. i guess for me the nights made me feel like i was the odd one out... what with me being the only single and all. i know its not their fault and i dont blame them. but its odd to know that i have absolutely nothing to input into anything.

starting from the beginning, i guess i knew somehow that this was going to be the last chalet, except maybe a gathering like a year down the line or whenever we find the space to do it.

i truly enjoyed myself during the chalet, even though everything seemed different, even though everything seemed totally awkward.

i knew that xiu was having some problem with her bf, and i really didnt want to probe. but i guess her emotions were kind of getting to me as well. if you knew me well enough you would have figured that i would have been worried, thusly these were within my limits.

a lot of things were given a miss, but the BBQ was a great success. I LIT A FIRE I LIT A FIRE!

although i started i tried to make this post seemed happy, to make it seem that nothing was wrong, but ultimately i knew that this would turn out this way. there was one thing i refused to tell them during the chalet, one thing that i think i'll never tell anyone. because i dont want anyone to say "i told you so".

but ultimately our routes will separate. two of us going overseas, while two of us staying behind. it seems inevitable that sooner or later we would have to part, but the time seems to be coming too soon for me to grasp.

that last chalet meant a lot more to me than anything. i didnt want photographs, i didnt want fun. i just wanted memories: knowing that for those three days i was happy, that those three days i had spent with my dearest friends who pulled me through thick and thin.

reading all the others' post about chalets made me feel that at least im not the only one: at least im not the only one feeling the depression of knowing we might never see each other again.

its sadly, i just cant let go of so many things at once. i just cant think about the times when we had in the past, and know that we will never ever see each other again.

the chalet meant so much more than anyone will ever know, because those times i can forever remember as the times we were closest, the times we could just have fun. of all the birthdays we spent together, the pain and comfort we found in each other.

For a week now, i've been working on a small project. one day it will be complete.


Girls, promise me. promise me we wont drift apart. Promise me we will keep in touch.
Since people are posting about their Valentine's day, i shall too!

Well, in the afternoon i went to meet Fuufuu chan so that we could get some Japan stuff. At around 5 i left AMK to meet the interns: Olivia, Jeremiah, Gordon, Andre, Sihua and Shuiling. We watching Leap Years. I have to say that for a plot it wasnt that bad, but maybe because we were sitting in front, the camera was moving a little too fast for my liking, and made me dizzy.

After that anyway, we decided to get some dinner. Gordon led us the wrong way by going one big round. We ate weird dishes in Waraku, before Andre started telling us about his past love lives. Sihua kept interrupting. She's very blur and kept doing the wrong things like giving me a cup whe i asked for a plate. Nevermind that's what makes it fun. After that i took a bus home.

Next day, i went with Fuufuu to meet serlyn to change japanese yen and to collect a suitcase from my house to hers. Was surprised when Gordon called and said that they wanted to get a (from here on its censored until the day passes).

After that, i went home to get some sleep. By then it was already 10++pm.

At 1am in the morning Kristy called me. she woke me up from my nice sleep, and we talked awhile, BEFORE i went back to bed. But by then i was no longer tired (5am in the morning).

Kristy and I met again today.. for fun. hahaha. I played gunbound at her house. AND YES I SUCK AT IT! ohhh mannnn.

when i came home i ate dinner, and then.. ya. HAHAHA. thats my 3 days worth!

Feb 13, 2008

im very happy that yuka has still kept contact with me. cant wait to see her, really! =) her emails always make me happy!!

Feb 10, 2008

after a very inspiringly LONG post on phy's blog, ive decided to post my own CNY post.. to see if it will rival hers. haha. i think it just might. only i have lesser pictures to show for it. xD

well.. my family has no real traditions on CNY... in fact 1 week prior to CNY my dad's side of the family already met. the usual happened... exclaiming on how fat others are, how thin others have become. i, managed to save my way through, thank goodness. no one seemed to notice me. my sis, unfortunately, got one of the fat comments, and it made her too upset for the rest of the day.

this year the talk amongst my dad's side of the family was of course, the weather in shanghai (One of my uncles is there), and the entertainment of my younger cousins doing what they called "magic". also found out cherry, my only older cousin on my dad's side, is getting married. (she's trying to get a house!) that makes. quite a few people i know getting married xD

thenn... the actual CNY. yes i pulled myself up earlier that day, just to be nice and to do my hair and FIND clothes to wear. i was supposed to wear this greyish dress with stockings, BUT IT DIDNT ARRIVE! so i had no choice but to rammage, and ended up wearing something NEW, but totally OFF CNY.

my first stop was to my mum's mum's house. as usual we were about the first ones there.. spent some time sleeping while waiting for everyone to come.

i think my family (aside from MY OWN family of course) has a tradition of wearing red... only my own father mum, sis and me came in a clothing that had NO red on it. BWAHAHAHA.

topic this time round.. as usual... "what u going to do after you leave poly" for me.. and "where you going" for my sis. had some fun talking to jemi. she really talks a lot now. for a pri 1 kid. jed on the other hand, grew a lot more quiet. TIAN WEI DIDNT TALK AT ALL!

we had some food... and then took some photos... shalene said me and her look more like sisters than me and my sis.. ahaha i guess a lot of people say me and my sis dont look alike xD.

ok then we went to my... erm... gu kong? i dont know what relation he is to me, but either way, we went to his house. sat there a while rotting my brains off... the heat was damn hot. after that... we left to go home.

Day 1 ended as such.

Day 2 started out simply enough, woken up by my dad. apparently we were having visitors so i had to haul my butt out of bed. GREAT. no time to do hair. nevermind just straighten, at least not that bed. i wore my nice red mediacorp polo T hahahaha. not my fault that was the first shirt on my rack.

apparently my dad's side of the family came, and i got the chance to meet cherry's fiance. what can i say he reminded me a little of... kf. haha. or someone else i dont know. *shrugs* i didnt talk much then, just checked japan details on the internet.

day 2 ended like that.

Day 3... which was today. started very weirdly. i promised my mum to go with her to visit her friends. her secondary school friends that she only gets to meet once a year if im not wrong. well i finally got my grey dress, so i wore that with stockings. hahaha. my dad said if his mum (she's dead) got to see me wearing that on CNY she would have killed him for allowing it. haha. but i insisted its grey. AND ANYWAY MY DAD WAS ALSO WEARING GREY.

yes and as usual, there was this big exclaim when i came, cos they havent seen me since i was maybe 9 or so. hahaha. i got to meet the two brothers (sorry i forgot names).. one's 21, the other 19. i think when i was young i used to play with them. I THINK. i vaguely recalled playing with the younger one ONCE. hmm. ya anyway. i dont recognise them and they dont recognise me. talked to the older one about internship and SP, mass comm and all that. he's going to england to study. cool eh~

after that, go another of my mum's friend's house. new house. met another son. -.- that one, as was introduced to, was "an anime fanatic". true true. he had loads of figurines that could rival anyone i knew. from FF series, gundam, to a few i didnt recognise, but mostly mecha. we talked. 2 sentences maybe. hahaha. i dont think i ever met him before. maybe when i was really young. both my mum and her friend insisted we met before. but i really dont remember.

-.- makes me wonder have i really grown that much. they exclaimed so loudly as though i changed a lot. hahaha. then again from 9 till now... i probably did change quite a bit.

im not posting pics, because i didnt take a lot, and also because i look weird in them. HAHAHA.

THAT marks the end of MY CNY as i know it. *shrugs* wish i could have kept in contact with those 3 i met today. HAHA. seems quite impossible. LOLS. maybe next year? xD


tomorrow evening will mark the start of an amazing 4 d 3 night for me. cant wait!

Feb 8, 2008

ive been considering changing my email address to .co.jp. i guess it was a matter of time before i was intrigued to doing it. hahahaha.

but then again, thinking back to all the people on MSN, everything, makes me seriously lazy to do that. i mean, THERE ARE STILL PEOPLE WHO ARE STILL SENDING TO HARUKA_TEN_OU@HOTMAIL.COM! -.- which goes to show that no one can 100% change their email addresses. xD haha. so i guess i'll just keep mine the way it is for now... maybe in a few more years i'd be more intrigued and have to do it. but for now, it doesn't feel feel that ... strong yet. so i'll see.

cant wait! i'll be busy again soon! LOL! sun, mon, tues, and wed. officially out of my calendar! WOO! then of course there's... my wonderful trip!

Feb 5, 2008

oh goodness i had a nightmare last night! omg. i dreamt of kanazawa... but that's not the scary part. the scary part was that when i dreamt of kanazawa, the faces i knew were replaced with the interns at mediacorp. NOPE not the scary part yet! the scary part was that a certain someone's face was replaced by none other than our very own, very confident of himself, mr gordon tay (who's father's name is derrick).

omg i got a big shock when i woke up. omg~ both stunned that he took the face of a good friend, AND also stunned that i dreamt of him -.- then again the second half is not so shocking because i dreamt of liting and the rest too. oh wells.

anyway, chinese new year is coming, so let me wish everyone a very pleasant and happy chinese new year!

i have a lot of work to do now, helping my dad with his company. ^^ hehehe.

haii... when can i see the girls again? =)

Feb 2, 2008

wow ive been really busy these past few days. lets take a recap.

On Feb 1 (Friday):
*not in order*

Club meeting to discuss the various topics of homestay, KTC, ANCT, as well as some logistics stuff. meeting took almost 3 hours if inclusive of food breaks.

Shopping with xiuzhi went with her to do some shopping. she bought stuff, i bought stuff. i think i did anyway. she and i talked about some interesting topics, before some stuff made me rush off. SORRY XIU!

MCS Intern Gathering went for gathering with the interns.. all 8 of us in total. congrats to the NP interns who had finally finished their 5/6 months of hard work! they ate botak jones, and drank some stupid beer. and remind me never ever to let gordon speak, least of all in front of my family. reached home at 1am.

Post Internship Briefing had a post internship briefing in school. was relatively entertaining. sad to know that that was probably the last time id be in school.. okay not for club meetings, but for school meetings.

that was friday.

today i went out for lunch, then met janice to go do some last minute "japan shopping". wah come home then i started rushing out some club stuff that had to be done by tomorrow. and i think i should sleep soon. to アロイ くん, you dont have to keep thanking me for doing so much. like i said, my term ends only when yours starts. this is only a intermediate period when i pass everything to you. even after your term starts, you all can still give me a call if you need hTelp, advice, brain power, multitasking, desperate, or just manpower. i'll do anything i can, within my powers to help. =p

AND TOMORROW!

Omg. tomorrow im going to lunch with my dad's family, before meeting the "japan trip girls". at around 3+... i think i will be seriously tired! i'll try to squeeze some time in for the club at the night or whenever someone calls i guess. i shall print out the name list LOL!

Meeting weiting on wednesday (so i dont forget xD)

what else... monday and tuesday i probably will be spending my time at home doing a present for yuka. NO ONE TELL HER LOL!

i am one hell of a busy, and seriously tired person. my brain is almost a quarter to none left. but somehow, as long as i have time for... as sandy put it... family, friends, fi-. eh wait her third one was fit. i dont have a "fit" to break time with. ok third one for me shall be club. family, friends, club. for work or for play, doesnt really matter.

like i said, i like being busy.

keeps life interesting, dont you think?

helps me be less revengeful, and takes my mind of others as well. xD


アロイ くん, ありがとう ね、jacket ^^。 がんばって~ i'll try to help whenever i can. xD