Omg i somehow managed to burn aloy's computer plug!! O.o im like soo... worried that i can hardly sit straight. i shall get him a replacement. but step 1... find a job. now it seems like i need to get a job asap.

a new principal seems to be making a lot of difference in SP. the biggest interest point is the DMC no longer belongs to SB, but to a school christianed CASS, which i can only phantom it means something like communication and smething school. seems like mr harry tan is trying to follow NP's steps and make it SP's as well.

sadly, i quite liked being a part of SB... now hearing CASS is kinda foriegn to me, so i'm glad that at least i've graduated and dont have to go through life in CASS. haha.

CCA drive seems to be going fine for the guys. can't help noticing that aloy seems to be under a lot of stress, as though he cant manage it. but i have no doubts that he'll be fine. it just takes time getting used to. がんばって　ね、アロイ　くん！　できる　です！

Been keeping in contact with the guys from ANCT... miss them loads actually after it all...

I miss yuka more, but she's not replying my emails. i think she's started work that's why...

...SP has invited me to go to the official opening of Moberly... i didnt know it hasnt officially opened yet LOL.

i think its sent to most clubs because its addressed to me and my club. hmmm... maybe its an EXCO thing, im not very sure.

graduation's coming closer, and i have yet to find a job. im hoping to get one soon though. have gone through 2 interviews, but nothing i like or fancy, or can imagine myself doing.

wonder how the other girls are doing?

I NEED A HAIRCUT~

i was so bored i decided to do some entertaining stuff... hahaha. and these were the results.


hahaha. jewel wors he...

ok this is relatively normal compared to the funnier ones...
yeahhhhhh seductress woman!
xiuxiu... zeniths wors~
-.- commentless. xD
HAHAHA THIS I FIND IS THE FUNNIEST XD

hahahaa well phy is playful
hahahahahhaa xD
boo~ xD wonder how her reaction will be.
sharon im sure will love this.
go sandy~ and in case any of the girls wonder about their BFs/Husbands...

bwahahahahhahaa...

ok la xiu did say she like to hug him... x)

^^ phyphyyyy xD

YES I AM THAT BORED! xD

i was once taught that a life cycle goes in circles, when things happen to you that goes well, and when everything goes drop shit for you.

well, right now i'm in my drop shit moment. my hikari (laptop) has died on me again, leaving it with aloysius for a week. my older lappie isnt working for me, my PHONE has spoilt, so i changed hp with my mum, and she forgot to bring the charger home, leaving me with a deaded phone... soon anyway...

but i still choose to look on the brighter side. because i was also taught that the worse it becomes, the better it will be later on. and im willing to suffer now for a better tomorrow, or week later. lols.

well, life can only get better from now on!

well, people have asked me to blog, but i seriously have nothing to blog about. i'm applying for jobs. x) for one. for two, erms... nothing special i guess. ^^

school has started in Poly, and i have officially graduated. =) i guess in the end the feeling is still bittersweet, because i dont know what to do... i feel at a loss for words. i actually dont mind doing part time free lance from now till then... but i wont do any temp-ing. x)

so.. haiiii.

WOOO!!! I JUST SIGNED UP FOR JAPANESE CLASS!

This time, im not giving it up.
This time, i wont let it go again.
This time, i'll finish it.
This time, i'll achieve my dream.

Even if it takes me as long as i need.

I will finish it.

cant wait for first lesson... v glad phy is doing it w me!!!

maybe just maybe i dont really know
each and every moment, seemed so long ago
one special moment, one special dream
just one, one special him.

and though i dream of every moment
i heard each word and phrase
each time, each memory i made
then, seemed to have your face.

but today i heard a different voice
it came with hurt and pain
there was never a happy ending
to this one, disillusioned dream.


oddly enough, a few days ago i stumbled upon this. i wrote this back then, back when i was... i think sec 4. i dont know what special reason it held, but i've begun to like it. the words seemed odd for a sec 4 kid.

i think im going crazy again. someone a long time ago once called me crazy. once said that... i was nuts. and now i believe it. i thought i grew stronger, but i was wrong. i grew stronger, but at the same time i grew weak. in the past i sacrificed what i felt for the pot at the end of the rainbow. and im doing the same again.

my illness is something i can no longer be bothered with. simply because there's nothing for me to work towards, nothing for me to look forward to. in a shot everything's been pulled out from under my feet and my life seems more insignificant than ever.

people say i have to live on, and that my life has a wider purpose. but.. it doesnt. as much as i dont want to admit it, my life was never meant to be anything great. i see it now. im meant to be a nobody. my name will never be remembered, and neither will anyone remember me. no matter how much i do. i will always be a nobody.

even if i cry and tell myself that im just lying to myself, its not going to cure anything. i cant promise myself anything, i cant even tell myself its going to be okay this time, and that i'll live through it. because i've already lost the motivation to press on.

each and every day seems to show me that i have nothing to work towards. and it feels as though my world is slowly falling apart. soon, one day, i will have nothing left.

in a world so shallow and bleak, life seems like a threatening statement. people say you live through the ones you helped, the ones you loved, and the ones you remembered. but its just a facade.

and now i know. life was never meant to be lived. life was meant so we could live it.

hehe. im now in the midst of uploading my japan pics, and ANCT, and xiu's wedding! BUT FIRST LET ME TALK ABT XIU'S WEDDING!!!

April 1st was a 1st for all of us... we went to xiu's solemnisation! hahaha. it was really.. unexpected, the way things were held.

well... firstly phy and i met to settle the gifts, signing of the card and all that. sandy met us there too, and we quickly signed it, before wrapping it up. the girls and i had a good time eating and talking about loads of rubbish. hehe. then phy and i decided to take some nice shots of the gift.. and in mos burger.. that was KINDDAAAA odd.


SCARY THING: phy nearly left the gift at home! she was at commonwealth before she called me and told me she left it at home! and yes.. it was wrapped by her mom. omg the two of us were panicking.. no frame, havent sign, havent write... omg omg no time!

but in the end we managed to get it done. and im quite proud of the design. it wasn't what we planned, but it looks nice and thats all that really mattered.

we then made out way to fort canning... haha we were so hot we went to the toilet. Sandy even went home to get changed so as to look more presentable for the wedding. hahahaha.!!! then we went in le. scary part was.. they were speaking in chinese so i didnt understand much of it... and it was like very fast. blah blah blah , done. i was quite shocked. i imagined there would be chairs, not this small room. but either way, it was quite sweet. xiu looked very happy and excited. i was super happy for her! hahahaha. btw xiu u looked v pretty that day! =)

mr and mrs chua, newly wed. hehehehehe. ^^

after that i went to meet liting and sihua (mediacorp interns)... and this is where i will divulge the truth about everything.

after everything's done, its like... the more i feel that you and i will never truly be friends. for the things you've said and the words that you've put to me, when i was most stressed out. instead of helping, you made everything feel worse.

and now, dont think that you can make me feel better... dont think that you know me. dont you dare talk to me ever again. im done with your lies and your idiocities, just leave yourself out of my life.

hehehe! feel free to click on the pics i've uploaded! IVE UPLOADED MY JAPAN TRIP PICS AND MY JAPANESE STUDENT PICS!!!! =D links are where they always are...