i havent posted in a while.. haha been really busy. but if u asked me doing what, i dont really know.

jap results are out. i didnt do too badly... but now the question remains whether im gg to continue taking it or not... i'll have to talk to phyphy about it.. if she decides not to do the 2nd module... i dont know if i'll continue doing it alone...

life is like a roller coaster right about now... going up and down and not knowing what to do or where to go. it's become an endless game that i dont want to play anymore.

maple's become a recluse for me.

cant wait for sandy to come back~ xiu's baby (sorry i keep having typos in her name) is going to be one month old soon!!!! i dont think we'd be going to the party (too much family and relatives around)... so we'll just see xiu and baby when she dares to bring her out~~~ kya~!

all my friends seem to be coming back suddenly. its made me happy ^^ happy person.

shiko if ur reading this i really miss talking to you. ive seen spitz online more than ive talked to you, and that's saying smth~~!!! hehes. catch up some time k~

it's been a while since ive posted something here.

xiu and her baby azealea have gone home, resting at home (i was going to say resting in peace but i realised that sounds a little... dead. but when i wrote it i was intending it to mean without the "squabbles of other ppl" and "other babies crying". dont mind me)

phy and i are almost done with our jap course, i quit working with my dad.

ive been spending more and more time on maple... maybe because ive met a few really great people there.

i dont know what part of my life has become real and which isnt anymore. some part of me seems to be living in a fairytale, yet it's one of those twisted ones where everything seems to go wrong.

maybe my mind is playing tricks on me, but ive decided im not going to fall for it again. i'll trust my friends, because all this while, when no one was there to see my pain, they were they to tell me it'll be okay... and while some of my friends only see the smile on my face, only those special few have been around to see the tears, and to tell me it'll be okay.

because of them i grew up, growing to let it go and forget about it, and even whatever that's happening right now, to move on and accept whatever i can get. it may bring back lovely memories of the past, but now thats not enough to make me anything i am not anymore.

im glad that my life has grown to change for the better, and maybe it will look up again soon. until then, if this is all i have, then this is all i need.

i love you guys, even if on the surface i never said it, and argued endlessly with all of you. yes jaz, even you. ^^