my sis has been constantly failing her A maths, so my mom hired my past tutor. however, after about 1 year with him, she's still failing. im pretty sure that its due to personal issues and reasons that she cant manage the teacher.
however, she's trying to tell my parents that she wants to try without a maths tutor now that she's failing. thats sounds really ludacris to me, honestly. she's in sec 3 now, and if she fails her maths, she might very well be retained. its honestly not the right year to test her wonderful skills.
these are the arguments:
1) because i have a tutor, i dont pay attention in class, having the mindset that he would teach me
2) i want to be independent and believe in myself
these are the same arguments i have made time and again, and im sure in my heart its not going to work. its the same arguments that everyone makes when they dont want a tutor. i believe that it has nothing to do with the tutor's capabilities, because he pulled me up from a score of 19 to a distinction. its only that every time i see her in tution class, she's either not paying attention or not bothering to really listen. both my tutors have agreed that she and i are not the same when it comes to tution: i for one dont move around too much.
now she just got out of the house. reallllllly thats not going to work. family argument taking place outside, and im peacefully hiding in my room, doing absolutely nothing to help her. because honestly, i dont believe her statements. i know in times like these sisters are supposed to stand by each other. but i feel that if i do support her, its only going to have a bad toll on her studies. im not supporting her because i do believe that by doing so she will have progress. they say sometimes you have to hurt the ones you love. i very dearly want to help her, and stand by her side, but i know that once she fails maths, its more or less over. if she fails a maths, she wont be able to take it next year. i wonder if she knows that...
she's going kill the argument. this argument that's going on right now wont take long. its the same sentence that she's repeating. i dont want to get myself involved in this one argument because it will just turn sour, and she probably needs someone to complain to later.
i wait for another day
to mention what's going on
Takahashi Hinoki
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