its a good thing im so tired recently. because now that i am, i dont have time to think about anything. when i come home, instead of simply checking if he's online... i've lost the interest to talk because i know i need to go off soon.

even my sats are packed full until i feel like crap.

i dont want to think about him anymore. i dont want to bother anymore. because there's nothing more. there never was. its now more obvious than ever.

oh well.

i need sleep. the lack of sleep is making me very very emo. and ive been told im not always so emo. apparently there was a point in time i was happy. just cant seem to remember that time...