the planning all paid off.. it was all worth it... but now my worry is nothing of that sort.

what should i do now? its a mingling of worry and of hope. should i tell him? i know the answer is no different whether i tell him or not... but if i do, there's only two ways... we have no option of friendship... we have no option of remaining friends.

because i cannot think that all that was a game, all that was nothing more than anything. and because of that... we were to either remain as friends, if i were to keep my secret... or if i chose to tell.. nothing... or everything.

it hurts knowing i might never see him again, and knowing that i will probably never get to see him again hurts. tomorrow marks the start of e-learning week. and because of that, i might not see him at all this week.

sad, really. but nothing i can do but miss him more as the days go by.