a softer side i saw
comforting, loving
beneath the layers
hidden, waiting
under the pain
the brutal, the hurt
caring and gentle
in touch and in word.

hmmm. progress. im making progress. i can feel it in my heart. i can feel the pain. i can feel the hurt of lying, and knowing that i cant lie to anyone anymore. for the first time, i can feel my heart telling me "stop it. its time to really stop it." this is the first time ive felt like i cannot lie to him or anyone anymore. honestly, it took me by surprise. but i am kinda happy it happened.