some things today made me realise that i... i cant really control myself anymore. i cried, for what seemed like the silliest thing. but recently i cant help but feel that... its kinda my fault. so yeah. i cried. even though everyone is telling me its not my fault. even though everyone is telling me its okay. i cant live with myself.

i dont know what this means or what im trying to say... but if somewhere, somehow you're reading this. im really sorry.