recently its been weird. like... i have this odd feeling like i'm forgetting something. i feel as though... i know tomorrow's friday. i know i dont have work. but i keep feeling like there's smething i need to do...

this irrational fear i figure is caused by my lack of job.. or something to do. i guess it gets a little weird knowing i need the cash but yet i cant get a job i want. a FT job cant be rushed. im not going to agree to go to.. say.. TUAS.. to get a job. no way..

i think i'm falling sick soon... my brain doesnt seem to work as fast as it used to. i cant seem to get the power or energy to think up things, and im getting more... affected by my surroundings.

i guess maybe my "time to shine" hasnt arrived yet..