hmms. i guess its time for me to find out the truth. but im not willing to "expose" myself as of yet. ive talked to phy about this. and i still cant make myself believe that that's the way he meant it to be.

and it hurts. taking pills every hour to counter the pain. but it still hurts. i dont need the answer.. its not the answer that i need.. im willing to wait it out. ^^ ive made my decision, and im sticking to it.