the worst has happened. i expected it to. okay its not worst, persay. but its horrible.

but for now there's nothing i can do.

just wondering in my brain and pretending that it means nothing to me.

what's exactly happening, im not sure either. i just know.. its beginning to hurt all over again. its getting better. im coping well. but. its not.

not yet.

something's still pestering me at the back of my head.

i dont want to forget it.