its funny, because i thought id be losing feeling by now... that i would have given up and moved on. but what's happening now is that ive given up everything else... and still havent moved on. because its become that he is the one thing i cant give up. now it had become that i had given up everything BUT that one thing...

yeah so we havent known each other too long, but still... its there somewhere. haiii.. its stupid really, but its a stupid kind of worth it. even to know its never going to happen... waiting is just enough for me.

i guess you can say im sad because of internship.. because once i leave the school, im taking all my memories with me. i wont get to see him anymore, nor will i get to see any of the rest. i hope that we still manage to continue holding outings ... i dont want to miss any of them too much.

its stupid. i should be on the way home. and yet im still here.

something's obviously wrong with me.