ive officially run out of things to say about everything. i dont know how to explain this in words, persay, but i dont know why im just so pissed all the time about certain topics which i have now deemed sensitive topics.

i guess its times like these that you know how it feels to have someone around you all the time, to share your troubles and problems. i would have settled for troubles that have happened before, but its happening over and over again, so many times that over the many times it has happened, im slowly becoming immune to the redemptions made by those problems.

the results cannot justify the causes and i cannot justify that i can look at certain things with the same forgiving eye, the same look i used to give, the same "maybe its not like we think it is...maybe there's another way to it all" expression. i dont believe i've changed much, but i think when its because ive given up and its gone beyond all hope. when u hit a hammer on a plank of thin wood once, u might not break it. but repeatedly hitting the hammer unto it with significant or greater force, and ultimately the wood will break. its part of a nature cycle.

ive begun to care less about what's un-important and insignificant, and focus more on what i treasure and value as importance.

after ICM, i have so many things in life to look forward to...

1) 18th Aug - meeting with aunts to go eat and shop for shoes
2) 19th Aug - meeting with girls to talk about what to bring for chalet!
3) 21st to 23rd Aug - chalet with the girls
4) 23rd Aug - 11th month anniversary with kf
5) KCNT japanese students!
6) 27th Aug - director preview for MILE
7) 28th Aug - sis' bday
8) 2nd sept to 15 sept - I FLY OFF TO MILEEE!!!
9) 16 sept - SMRT pitstop with xiuxiu!
10) 23rd sept - my one year anniv!!!!!! =D

so many things... =) im looking forward to this holiday! YAY!