for the first time in my life i'm okay with being left out. :) because i know i have great friends, and at least i know the ones that care about me are true about it. no need to think about who's using me, about who's lying to me and about who's trying to get me to be better to them. i know my friends love me for who i am and thats all i care about.
yea sure sometimes im very annoyed at the lack of TACT that people show... at how they brag about things when clearly knowing you werent even invited. and CONTINUING to do so. but i realised.. what difference does it make? i'll never belong. and its just a job.
but at least i know my real friends.. my true friends... will never leave my side. no matter what. they've been through hell and back with me. and they've supported and been by my side no matter what ive gone through with or without them. So to my real friends, i say thank you. :) because only you will still read my blog after so many months of disappearing. :P
Feb 9, 2011
Oct 19, 2010
ranting time.
its getting unbearable. you know about those stories where someone always outshines you, always get chosen before you in games? even if you were better (not best per se) but still he/she gets chosen because they're prettier/hotter/sexier or smarter. for awhile you try to bear it, constantly telling yourself that perseverence is key. you remind yourself thats why you came here, to learn about the real world, to be trodden on and to learn to dig your way out of it.
but each step each word each movement becomes a blow to the stomach. ive suffered through many kinds of pain, physically mentally emotionally. but only this makes me feel like im in secondary school all over again. i remember how hard i used to try. in secondary school i fought to become vice president of a club, just to get some sort of recognition. i had only 1 friend, a good friend but 1 nonetheless. i craved attention. in poly i changed everything. i never fought for anything, but yet i still got the name i wanted. i went on to represent the school in overseas trips, but each step i made i found myself fighting for the leading position, not because i wanted it, but because someone was trying to push me up there. maybe they felt i was best for the position and id like to think so, id like to think i made a difference. but all that had changed i no longer craved attention or wanting to be needed.
now, i dont know how im supposed to feel. i feel torn between two halves of me. part of me doesnt want me to care, and yet the other part wants me to. i dont know. im stuck, and i feel a little of my old self resurfacing.
its getting unbearable. you know about those stories where someone always outshines you, always get chosen before you in games? even if you were better (not best per se) but still he/she gets chosen because they're prettier/hotter/sexier or smarter. for awhile you try to bear it, constantly telling yourself that perseverence is key. you remind yourself thats why you came here, to learn about the real world, to be trodden on and to learn to dig your way out of it.
but each step each word each movement becomes a blow to the stomach. ive suffered through many kinds of pain, physically mentally emotionally. but only this makes me feel like im in secondary school all over again. i remember how hard i used to try. in secondary school i fought to become vice president of a club, just to get some sort of recognition. i had only 1 friend, a good friend but 1 nonetheless. i craved attention. in poly i changed everything. i never fought for anything, but yet i still got the name i wanted. i went on to represent the school in overseas trips, but each step i made i found myself fighting for the leading position, not because i wanted it, but because someone was trying to push me up there. maybe they felt i was best for the position and id like to think so, id like to think i made a difference. but all that had changed i no longer craved attention or wanting to be needed.
now, i dont know how im supposed to feel. i feel torn between two halves of me. part of me doesnt want me to care, and yet the other part wants me to. i dont know. im stuck, and i feel a little of my old self resurfacing.
Aug 25, 2010
ok so yea im back here. not sure if its temporary or permanent yet. but i have a few issues to write about that i dont feel comfortable writing in their blogs.
firstly, phyphy.
Your list of questions.
Am I a person that is difficult to like? Am I likable at all?
You are not a persion difficult to like. But you are not a person easy to get to know well: its not easy to get into your inner circle, to understand the real person altogether. You are likeable, but hard to break through the initial stages of friendship to get to know the person inside.
Am I one of those people whom you either love or loathe?
No, because i dont feel i love or loathe you. To me you're one of those people thats easily approachable, good to talk to, though sometimes can be abit high-strong and stubborn.
Am I irritating?
No. Except when we're doing project. Like i said, you're very stubborn, and when you dont get your way you tend to fight for it. it's not a bad thing it could be seen as goal-oriented. but maybe its just because im more sensitive to not wanna hurt someone else's feelings so i dont try to dissuade you. and i could name 5 ppl that are way more irritating :P
Is it hard to befriend me?
Like i said earlier, its hard to befriend you. but at the same time, once that step has been made, you're a very loyal and trustworthy friend. totally worth the effort.
If you do like me, what do you like about me?
i like your kookiness, how you can be serious and studious and crazy about projects and stuff, but yet still be able to have a whole load of fun. you're stubborn but yet you allow others to have their say (and even if you dont agree you at least listen to it). oh yes i love your glompz too! (aya this question too many more things to write im lazy alrdy :( )
Now, about myself.
I dont know why, but recently ive grown more irritable towards many things. ive stopped telling people things unless i have to. dont worry about it its not because i dont like you anymore, or because i hate talking to you. its just sometimes i hate answering the same questions over and over again. for example: telling you ive changed job usually adheres questions such as: where, why how much and a constant "hows work there?" or "do you like it there?" kinda thing. i wish to avoid it so whenever ppl ask me those questions i just pretend i never see.
i find myself changing, somewhat as though im watching myself change. i dont care so much about family anymore, nor do i have time to think about it. its not that i dont have time, or as most ppl would say "My priorities are wrong". its not that. lets get this straight. I DONT WANT TO. im ok with my sis, im ok with my cousins, but im not ok with my parents. and its getting worse.
digressing..
:) IM DONE!
cant wait for whats happening on 9th! (secret will update again when it happens!)
firstly, phyphy.
Your list of questions.
Am I a person that is difficult to like? Am I likable at all?
You are not a persion difficult to like. But you are not a person easy to get to know well: its not easy to get into your inner circle, to understand the real person altogether. You are likeable, but hard to break through the initial stages of friendship to get to know the person inside.
Am I one of those people whom you either love or loathe?
No, because i dont feel i love or loathe you. To me you're one of those people thats easily approachable, good to talk to, though sometimes can be abit high-strong and stubborn.
Am I irritating?
No. Except when we're doing project. Like i said, you're very stubborn, and when you dont get your way you tend to fight for it. it's not a bad thing it could be seen as goal-oriented. but maybe its just because im more sensitive to not wanna hurt someone else's feelings so i dont try to dissuade you. and i could name 5 ppl that are way more irritating :P
Is it hard to befriend me?
Like i said earlier, its hard to befriend you. but at the same time, once that step has been made, you're a very loyal and trustworthy friend. totally worth the effort.
If you do like me, what do you like about me?
i like your kookiness, how you can be serious and studious and crazy about projects and stuff, but yet still be able to have a whole load of fun. you're stubborn but yet you allow others to have their say (and even if you dont agree you at least listen to it). oh yes i love your glompz too! (aya this question too many more things to write im lazy alrdy :( )
Now, about myself.
I dont know why, but recently ive grown more irritable towards many things. ive stopped telling people things unless i have to. dont worry about it its not because i dont like you anymore, or because i hate talking to you. its just sometimes i hate answering the same questions over and over again. for example: telling you ive changed job usually adheres questions such as: where, why how much and a constant "hows work there?" or "do you like it there?" kinda thing. i wish to avoid it so whenever ppl ask me those questions i just pretend i never see.
i find myself changing, somewhat as though im watching myself change. i dont care so much about family anymore, nor do i have time to think about it. its not that i dont have time, or as most ppl would say "My priorities are wrong". its not that. lets get this straight. I DONT WANT TO. im ok with my sis, im ok with my cousins, but im not ok with my parents. and its getting worse.
digressing..
:) IM DONE!
cant wait for whats happening on 9th! (secret will update again when it happens!)
Jul 21, 2010
im getting truly sick of this. i dont know how to describe my parents anymore. i dont know what ive become and why my temper has changed so drastically i feel that my parents nolonger understand me. ok understand is the wrong word to use: they're my parents and a part of them will always subconsciously understand me. maybe our method of communication just isnt right. my mum's constant tantrums and whines make me want to talk to her less and less as each day goes past, and her constant snide remarks about certain things i do come off the wrong way. instead ofthinking "oh i should try to do this since my mum is not happy about it" i think of it in the sense that, she has noguts/whatever to come to me and tell me, and intsead she's venting on people about me, KNOWING that it'll affect me because she knows i can hear. this incident has gone on for a v long time. when i was in poly and my pc broke down because the plug fuse burnt, i threw a tantrum because my group was counting on me and needed me to finish the project by that night. and what happens when i dont? I FAIL. and who gets scolded? ME. yes. either way its my fault. but instead of helping me she goes to a friend to borrow a plug for me. borrowing is fine. i thank her for that. but she did not have to tell her friend that i was crying hysterically because of such a small thing. and when i collected the plug her friend laughed at me, thinking that the incident refered to my younger sister. i was so pissed that day its never left my mind.
other incidents usually revolve around money. first it was becuase i had no job. now i have a job and i rarely ask them for money, except when im really broke (usually if i have 0 cash id just not eat for the day, and only ask if its been more than 1-2 weeks and i cant take it anymore). and instead of my parents trying to help, they keep asking me when im going to pay for the installment of my pc (NOTE: I HAVE NOT DELAYED IN PAYING THE CURRENT MONTH'S DEPOSIT). fine, communication breakdown, acceptable. but while they know i have no money to pay off the deposit, does anyone consider WHERE THE HELL I GET THE MONEY TO EAT? NO.....
den i agreed to go to work. its so hard to work and study im having constant breakdowns and have to stop myself from just crying in the office. instead all they ask me is when is my next module, when is my exams. the only time i have to myself is when i can go online and play games to relax myself. and NO i cant even do that without them nagging at me.
now that im working as a temp staff APPARENTLY its not enough. im quite happy here, apart from certain quirks in the office i cant stand. i mean, i dont need to use my brain, i can concentrate on learning when school days come. but noooo, dad wants me to get a full time job because "this job has no future". im already at my breaking point ive taken two MIA disappearances and no one even notices that something is seriously wrong.
i can only talk to matt about all these things but recently ive tried not to disturb him with these because he's so caught up in office with his own things. i dont wanna be a burden, he has his own worries to worry about.
and all the more i dont get this: why is my sis allowed to stay out late. but when im like 1 minute late i get a snide comment about being late. i hate this. i seriously hate this. all i want to do now is be left alone. i can support myself, i can survive on my own. and all these things are making it more clear. my parents dont understand me at all. and explaining isnt going to work because all i'll get is explanations on how life is harder in the future. for once, i just want them to see me for A PERSON, and not their child. maybe then they would realise something's wrong.
other incidents usually revolve around money. first it was becuase i had no job. now i have a job and i rarely ask them for money, except when im really broke (usually if i have 0 cash id just not eat for the day, and only ask if its been more than 1-2 weeks and i cant take it anymore). and instead of my parents trying to help, they keep asking me when im going to pay for the installment of my pc (NOTE: I HAVE NOT DELAYED IN PAYING THE CURRENT MONTH'S DEPOSIT). fine, communication breakdown, acceptable. but while they know i have no money to pay off the deposit, does anyone consider WHERE THE HELL I GET THE MONEY TO EAT? NO.....
den i agreed to go to work. its so hard to work and study im having constant breakdowns and have to stop myself from just crying in the office. instead all they ask me is when is my next module, when is my exams. the only time i have to myself is when i can go online and play games to relax myself. and NO i cant even do that without them nagging at me.
now that im working as a temp staff APPARENTLY its not enough. im quite happy here, apart from certain quirks in the office i cant stand. i mean, i dont need to use my brain, i can concentrate on learning when school days come. but noooo, dad wants me to get a full time job because "this job has no future". im already at my breaking point ive taken two MIA disappearances and no one even notices that something is seriously wrong.
i can only talk to matt about all these things but recently ive tried not to disturb him with these because he's so caught up in office with his own things. i dont wanna be a burden, he has his own worries to worry about.
and all the more i dont get this: why is my sis allowed to stay out late. but when im like 1 minute late i get a snide comment about being late. i hate this. i seriously hate this. all i want to do now is be left alone. i can support myself, i can survive on my own. and all these things are making it more clear. my parents dont understand me at all. and explaining isnt going to work because all i'll get is explanations on how life is harder in the future. for once, i just want them to see me for A PERSON, and not their child. maybe then they would realise something's wrong.
Jun 25, 2010
white noise
one day i will record the white noise in my office. and then you can imagine the distractions here. right now even blasting music at full volume on my computer into my headphones isnt drowning out the white noise. SIGH.
Jun 24, 2010
sun/moon combi
phyphy did this for me.. sounds pretty accurate.
Sun in Libra/Moon in Cancer
The combination of your Libra Sun and Cancer Moon produces an idealist bent on finding romantic adventure. You are a deep feeling and understanding person. The emotional balance, courtesy and friendliness of Libra blends well with the depth of feeling, sensitivity and tenacity of Cancer.
There often may be some confusion in your life because what you think and what you "feel" may be at odds(very very true).
It's very difficult for you to decide what to do. Reality and unreality constantly battle for your attention. Very much the idealistic dreamer, you hold yourself somewhat removed from the rest of society (HAHAHA very very true. thusly the illuxionist XD. trying to come back to reality now).
Yet you do like people. You want and need human contact, and you are so consonant that there is some danger people with take advantage of your malleable manner (hmm. matt always says im naive and abit stupid and totally not street smart. so i guess this is true?).
You understand the feelings and moods of others, so you're very skilled at avoiding conflicts and clashes of temperament. (HMMM.. not sure about this. sometimes i feel i wanna get into fights with others just to vent abit of anger off)
This position personifies the ideals of any peace movement as you are a true lover of freedom, justice, equality, and independence (er.... freedom and independence maybe. not so much equality..).
By nature so peaceful and tactful, you will avoid argument and strife if you possibly can. (mmm last time it was true, now it depends on who rubs me the wrong way and severity of it)
You are exceedingly adaptable, taking on the color of your surroundings. You mind your own business and don't impose on the rights of others. You aren't likely to become a fighter for social justice or the rights of the masses because you are not a very assertive person. (definitely agree with the not assertive and not likely to become a fighter. im too lazy.)
Your philosophies are pretty much centered in yourself, a live and let live attitude. Refined tastes and a strong aesthetic sense encourage interest in the artistic things in life. (hmmmmmmmmmmmm... this... i guess is true. not so sure about the "strong aesthetic sense")
can someone gimme an opinion whether this sounds like me? i think it does...
Sun in Libra/Moon in Cancer
The combination of your Libra Sun and Cancer Moon produces an idealist bent on finding romantic adventure. You are a deep feeling and understanding person. The emotional balance, courtesy and friendliness of Libra blends well with the depth of feeling, sensitivity and tenacity of Cancer.
There often may be some confusion in your life because what you think and what you "feel" may be at odds(very very true).
It's very difficult for you to decide what to do. Reality and unreality constantly battle for your attention. Very much the idealistic dreamer, you hold yourself somewhat removed from the rest of society (HAHAHA very very true. thusly the illuxionist XD. trying to come back to reality now).
Yet you do like people. You want and need human contact, and you are so consonant that there is some danger people with take advantage of your malleable manner (hmm. matt always says im naive and abit stupid and totally not street smart. so i guess this is true?).
You understand the feelings and moods of others, so you're very skilled at avoiding conflicts and clashes of temperament. (HMMM.. not sure about this. sometimes i feel i wanna get into fights with others just to vent abit of anger off)
This position personifies the ideals of any peace movement as you are a true lover of freedom, justice, equality, and independence (er.... freedom and independence maybe. not so much equality..).
By nature so peaceful and tactful, you will avoid argument and strife if you possibly can. (mmm last time it was true, now it depends on who rubs me the wrong way and severity of it)
You are exceedingly adaptable, taking on the color of your surroundings. You mind your own business and don't impose on the rights of others. You aren't likely to become a fighter for social justice or the rights of the masses because you are not a very assertive person. (definitely agree with the not assertive and not likely to become a fighter. im too lazy.)
Your philosophies are pretty much centered in yourself, a live and let live attitude. Refined tastes and a strong aesthetic sense encourage interest in the artistic things in life. (hmmmmmmmmmmmm... this... i guess is true. not so sure about the "strong aesthetic sense")
can someone gimme an opinion whether this sounds like me? i think it does...
Jun 17, 2010
this about sums up how i feel now.
take a breath
take it deep
"calm yourself," he says to me.
"if you play, you play for keeps
take the gun, and count to 3."
im sweating now
moving slow
no time to think
my turn to go
and you can see my heart, beating
you can see it through my chest
that im terrified but im not leaving
i know that i must pass this test
so just pull the trigger
say a prayer
to yourself
he says close your eyes
sometimes it helps
and then i get a scary thought
that he's here, means he's never lost
and you can see my heart beating
you can see it through my chest
that i'm terrified but im not leaving
i know that i must pass this test
so just pull the trigger
as my life flashes before my eyes
im wondering will i ever see another sunrise
so many wont get the chance to say goodbye
but its too late to think of the value of my life.
and you can see my heart beating
you can see it through my chest
that i'm terrified but im not leaving
i know that i must pass this test
so just pull the trigger
take a breath
take it deep
"calm yourself," he says to me.
"if you play, you play for keeps
take the gun, and count to 3."
im sweating now
moving slow
no time to think
my turn to go
and you can see my heart, beating
you can see it through my chest
that im terrified but im not leaving
i know that i must pass this test
so just pull the trigger
say a prayer
to yourself
he says close your eyes
sometimes it helps
and then i get a scary thought
that he's here, means he's never lost
and you can see my heart beating
you can see it through my chest
that i'm terrified but im not leaving
i know that i must pass this test
so just pull the trigger
as my life flashes before my eyes
im wondering will i ever see another sunrise
so many wont get the chance to say goodbye
but its too late to think of the value of my life.
and you can see my heart beating
you can see it through my chest
that i'm terrified but im not leaving
i know that i must pass this test
so just pull the trigger
Jun 14, 2010
goodbye all, TEMPORARILY.
ive finally decided to go on my hiatus. so in case anyone tries to contact me, if you read this: i dont hate you.
The reason why ive decided to go on hiatus is because im beginning to feel that everything is piled on me, and perhaps im taking on too much for me. But being me, i hate to say no and i want to try to help in anyway i can. But i'm starting to feel that everyone is pressuring me into doing something that i feel im holding a major of the weight on.
School work, friends, even at home, i feel like i cant rest at any point without being told that im supposed to be doing something else. so yeah. im going on hiatus. i will not reply SMSes, i will not log on MSN, i will not answer any calls. please dont spam my phone or i'd have to resort to blocking incoming calls until im ready. however, yes i am aware that i still have commitments to carry out.
im holding a lot of things on my own, too much perhaps for me. i wake up with headaches that i cant fight. i cant sleep and i feel like im always on the brink of tears. no matter what songs im listening to (and i blast them at full volume to avoid white noise in the office), im one step away from crying. its not about my relationships or my life anymore. i feel like im one step from breaking down and giving up.
i feel more and more like i want nothing more than to lie in bed and rot and be myself. to let go of all my work-related commitments but we all know i cant do that. i just hate that even when i go online for like 5secs, before i even get a chance to see who's online, i get offline/online messages asking me if ive done whatever it is im supposed to do.
you may say im running away, you may say im hiding from reality. truth is i dont care. if i dont run now, i will really break down.
so please, if you read this. let me go on my hiatus. i'll be back in a month or so. promise.
The reason why ive decided to go on hiatus is because im beginning to feel that everything is piled on me, and perhaps im taking on too much for me. But being me, i hate to say no and i want to try to help in anyway i can. But i'm starting to feel that everyone is pressuring me into doing something that i feel im holding a major of the weight on.
School work, friends, even at home, i feel like i cant rest at any point without being told that im supposed to be doing something else. so yeah. im going on hiatus. i will not reply SMSes, i will not log on MSN, i will not answer any calls. please dont spam my phone or i'd have to resort to blocking incoming calls until im ready. however, yes i am aware that i still have commitments to carry out.
im holding a lot of things on my own, too much perhaps for me. i wake up with headaches that i cant fight. i cant sleep and i feel like im always on the brink of tears. no matter what songs im listening to (and i blast them at full volume to avoid white noise in the office), im one step away from crying. its not about my relationships or my life anymore. i feel like im one step from breaking down and giving up.
i feel more and more like i want nothing more than to lie in bed and rot and be myself. to let go of all my work-related commitments but we all know i cant do that. i just hate that even when i go online for like 5secs, before i even get a chance to see who's online, i get offline/online messages asking me if ive done whatever it is im supposed to do.
you may say im running away, you may say im hiding from reality. truth is i dont care. if i dont run now, i will really break down.
so please, if you read this. let me go on my hiatus. i'll be back in a month or so. promise.
Jun 7, 2010
perseverance: learn from the snail
there are many reasons why i dont enjoy the company of my colleagues. im not talking about my boss, my boss is a nice guy. and thats not because he's a friend of my dad, but because he cares about our welfare.
im going to write a breakdown of the things that i find ridiculous that have happened in the 1month 2 weeks ive been working here.
1. She has pictures of her son printed and pasted on her computer screen. One day i accidentally knocked over a bottle (which had a cap on, but not fastened. why i dont know) and it splashed over her. Note its plain water. I quickly helped her clean it up. den she comes up and tells me i ruined her picture and, in her words, "spoil her things." the said picture is printed using a normal printer which she can always reprint using the company printer (which is how she printed the first one in the first place.) i apologised for it and tried not to think so much about it. but i was quite pissed cos to me its really no big deal wad.
2. she constantly asks me to ask my friend to work harder/play less/talk less etc. she's the superior leh cant she tell her? it makes more impact that way?
3. my friend was fired. i wasnt notified. so my fren came to work today, not knowing she was fired. den my colleague asked "you didn't tell her ah?" WAIT A SECOND. now its my job to inform others' they've been fired? O.O wow. ok la you dont have her number etcetcetc, cannot ask? Hmm...
4. she's always doing her personal things at work.
- calling her own companies to ask whether her cheques have been received by them.
- calling her friends to complain about something someone said in her FB.
- calling her enemies/ex-friends to scold them about what they wrote on FB.
- telling other people about her life story. (and i dont wanna hear again about how she cant sell her 3year old house because of a 5 year grant, and how she has to because of her stupid lawyer who didnt defend her when she was fighting for divorce against her irritating prison-ex-husband.)
- constantly complaining about her boss to everyone who's willing (or forced) to listen.
5. slamming the phone down after quarrelling with whoever is on the line (be it work-clients, or personal-collectors/friends.) the phone is just next to me.
i understand she gets pissed easily and maybe she has a lot on her shoulders and yes im not taking the effort to know her. unfortunately this is work. im not here to make friends. and i dont care if she reads this and decides to flood my mailbox. everything ive written is true and factual. and i have witnesses :) bring it on.
well, there's only one word i have. PERSERVARENCE. and speaking of perserverence, let me lend a nice quote. ^_____^ "By perseverance the snail reached the ark." hahahahha! nice quote hahaha.
~~~
on the other hand, i finally got to meet baby on friday. :D quite a nice quiet night. we went to dhoby to have dinner and just chill. wasn't a lot, but its the first time we've met in over a week :) i really dont realise how much i missed him until i saw him. :P
love babyy :D
im going to write a breakdown of the things that i find ridiculous that have happened in the 1month 2 weeks ive been working here.
1. She has pictures of her son printed and pasted on her computer screen. One day i accidentally knocked over a bottle (which had a cap on, but not fastened. why i dont know) and it splashed over her. Note its plain water. I quickly helped her clean it up. den she comes up and tells me i ruined her picture and, in her words, "spoil her things." the said picture is printed using a normal printer which she can always reprint using the company printer (which is how she printed the first one in the first place.) i apologised for it and tried not to think so much about it. but i was quite pissed cos to me its really no big deal wad.
2. she constantly asks me to ask my friend to work harder/play less/talk less etc. she's the superior leh cant she tell her? it makes more impact that way?
3. my friend was fired. i wasnt notified. so my fren came to work today, not knowing she was fired. den my colleague asked "you didn't tell her ah?" WAIT A SECOND. now its my job to inform others' they've been fired? O.O wow. ok la you dont have her number etcetcetc, cannot ask? Hmm...
4. she's always doing her personal things at work.
- calling her own companies to ask whether her cheques have been received by them.
- calling her friends to complain about something someone said in her FB.
- calling her enemies/ex-friends to scold them about what they wrote on FB.
- telling other people about her life story. (and i dont wanna hear again about how she cant sell her 3year old house because of a 5 year grant, and how she has to because of her stupid lawyer who didnt defend her when she was fighting for divorce against her irritating prison-ex-husband.)
- constantly complaining about her boss to everyone who's willing (or forced) to listen.
5. slamming the phone down after quarrelling with whoever is on the line (be it work-clients, or personal-collectors/friends.) the phone is just next to me.
i understand she gets pissed easily and maybe she has a lot on her shoulders and yes im not taking the effort to know her. unfortunately this is work. im not here to make friends. and i dont care if she reads this and decides to flood my mailbox. everything ive written is true and factual. and i have witnesses :) bring it on.
well, there's only one word i have. PERSERVARENCE. and speaking of perserverence, let me lend a nice quote. ^_____^ "By perseverance the snail reached the ark." hahahahha! nice quote hahaha.
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on the other hand, i finally got to meet baby on friday. :D quite a nice quiet night. we went to dhoby to have dinner and just chill. wasn't a lot, but its the first time we've met in over a week :) i really dont realise how much i missed him until i saw him. :P
love babyy :D
Jun 4, 2010
forgetful xiuzhi :)
quote of the day: *actually its joke of yesterday*
xiu phy n me were on msn talking about old times and i went to visit their blogs past entries. i copied out a chunk of text from xiu's blog. it went something like this.
Jing: *copies chunk of text, something about chalet*
Xiu: Who Wrote That?
Jing: YOU!
I nearly fainted haha. its like we've written so many painful things about life and each other that i kinda squirm reading about them. but tinking that we made it this far, and right now we dont remember a thing about what happened, or rather what we felt exactly back then, makes me feel like we've grown up..
<3 babyy. sorry i couldnt go out with you today. :( i bought new shoes tho... :X
xiu phy n me were on msn talking about old times and i went to visit their blogs past entries. i copied out a chunk of text from xiu's blog. it went something like this.
Jing: *copies chunk of text, something about chalet*
Xiu: Who Wrote That?
Jing: YOU!
I nearly fainted haha. its like we've written so many painful things about life and each other that i kinda squirm reading about them. but tinking that we made it this far, and right now we dont remember a thing about what happened, or rather what we felt exactly back then, makes me feel like we've grown up..
<3 babyy. sorry i couldnt go out with you today. :( i bought new shoes tho... :X
Jun 3, 2010
i am not to be packaged.
i realise for a very long time ive been "packaged" as being part of a whole. never just 1 person. but always 2.
in secondary school i was always the "person next to kristy." the person she looked towards when she needed notes, the person she looked to when she needed a shoulder. and although she's been there for me i remember occasions where teachers would tell me "can you help kristy ...". i didnt understand at that point in time but it was the start of me being packaged as a part of something instead of just myself.
thankfully in poly, i wasn't. i was treated as a whole person. i got to run my own club the way i wanted to, and i got good friends who were willing to put my flaws aside and treat me as a person. yeah we fought a lot and quarrelled, but they still stayed with me no matter what.
den came my uni life. first situation. because i didnt come for the first class, they had alrdy assigned groups to everyone. so me and R ( i shall not put her name here) had no group. R and I were firends from the first module, but we didnt know each other v well. so we joined this group i will call the D group.
D group people knew each other for along time i think they came from the same poly or smth. So the D group let us join as they had oni 4 and need 5-6 members.
During the course of this project, 1 member always wasn't around. That was R. and all of us got very annoyed by it. my included. i didnt know what D group was thinking until the "leader" of D group said "i regret adding you and R to the group. You contribue and ur a + to the group, but R is negative and is a -. So u neutralise each other." im like wtf. u tell that to me in my face. so you would prefer 3 ppl working on 1 project than 4? okkk lor. i swore at that point i wont continue in the same group if i could help it. The next module i joined my current group. WAY better.
den now comes work. K (my sec sch fren) working with me. and im being packaged with her to "help her clean and wash her cups" because she didnt. wtf. her problems are hers and mine are mine. i do work well and all i get is people asking me to tell HER to do it faster. HELLO WE ARE NOT SIAMESE TWINS OK. Thanks.
The oni person i wished to be packaged with is babyy, who seems to have a lot of work and politics on his end, so i dun wanna worry him about these trivial details. it just an annoyance and its not very much a big deal. i just hope babyy can pull through it, because he really likes what he is doing and i dun wan him to give it up just because some asses are being unfair to him. (tho now i think about it, i did those things to him before. when he was telling me, i kept having flashbacks to the things ive done to him. im sorry babyy. im sorry.)
ok finished rant for the day. back to work!
in secondary school i was always the "person next to kristy." the person she looked towards when she needed notes, the person she looked to when she needed a shoulder. and although she's been there for me i remember occasions where teachers would tell me "can you help kristy ...". i didnt understand at that point in time but it was the start of me being packaged as a part of something instead of just myself.
thankfully in poly, i wasn't. i was treated as a whole person. i got to run my own club the way i wanted to, and i got good friends who were willing to put my flaws aside and treat me as a person. yeah we fought a lot and quarrelled, but they still stayed with me no matter what.
den came my uni life. first situation. because i didnt come for the first class, they had alrdy assigned groups to everyone. so me and R ( i shall not put her name here) had no group. R and I were firends from the first module, but we didnt know each other v well. so we joined this group i will call the D group.
D group people knew each other for along time i think they came from the same poly or smth. So the D group let us join as they had oni 4 and need 5-6 members.
During the course of this project, 1 member always wasn't around. That was R. and all of us got very annoyed by it. my included. i didnt know what D group was thinking until the "leader" of D group said "i regret adding you and R to the group. You contribue and ur a + to the group, but R is negative and is a -. So u neutralise each other." im like wtf. u tell that to me in my face. so you would prefer 3 ppl working on 1 project than 4? okkk lor. i swore at that point i wont continue in the same group if i could help it. The next module i joined my current group. WAY better.
den now comes work. K (my sec sch fren) working with me. and im being packaged with her to "help her clean and wash her cups" because she didnt. wtf. her problems are hers and mine are mine. i do work well and all i get is people asking me to tell HER to do it faster. HELLO WE ARE NOT SIAMESE TWINS OK. Thanks.
The oni person i wished to be packaged with is babyy, who seems to have a lot of work and politics on his end, so i dun wanna worry him about these trivial details. it just an annoyance and its not very much a big deal. i just hope babyy can pull through it, because he really likes what he is doing and i dun wan him to give it up just because some asses are being unfair to him. (tho now i think about it, i did those things to him before. when he was telling me, i kept having flashbacks to the things ive done to him. im sorry babyy. im sorry.)
ok finished rant for the day. back to work!
Jun 2, 2010
poly days nostalgia...
remember those times.. those stupid times we did really stupid things.
1. 4 idiots that got totally baked by sentosa sun and bought 4 identical tubes of aloe vera gel and went to school applying it everywhere they went. (not forgetting 1 idiot who brought sushi to the picnic. IN MY DEF I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS SUSHI IN THE BOX! hahaha)
2. hand in hand "marching" up the red brick area to class. i think more than once we blocked the entire path.
3. sandy's expensive perfume which she kept spraying at shawn's stinky feet.
4. xiu's amazing sleeping powers. that girl can sleep ANYWHERE.
5. phy always forgetting when her thing comes. and always getting panic attacks and borrowing *STUFF* from us. ESPECIALLY when she's wearing her white pants hahahaha.
6. meiling's *NICE NOT* earrings, 4 quarter jacket and pants during our first abortion presentation. remember how xiu had to FLY through the rest of the presentation just because ml took soooo long talking about baby drops...
7. LEANING TOWER OF PISA! It was a building error! hahahaha. i remember xiu's face when she said that. it was like *EHHH!?*
8. sandy's boooodyshop promotions! i remember i bought alot of weird stuff. including the shimmer musk! I STILL HAVE IT!
9. i remember once xiu got so pissed with that young teacher cos she was linking short skirts to sluttiness or attracting attention or something. hahaha.
10. phy!! who could forget the time they did the play and phy slapped shawn so hard his face turned red. AND not to mention, shawn kicking the chair, hitting the board, and causing the teacher next door to come over and see what was happening!
11. sleepless nights. i remmeber the time we had a 25hr meeting minute. at phy's house. after phy and san fell asleep discussion got halted and xiu and me continued with the report. den jan came online and DEMANDED why we din tell her got meeting, why we not in class etc. we were so angry we all took turns to type on xiu's msn ahahhaa.
12. papaya milkshake. probably sandy's fav drink ever. and speaking of sandy...
13. HOTMAIL TAB! i think this needs no explanation! hehe.
14. anyone remember the hip coconut tree? shawn drew it for our DMD... we din use it in the end though :P
haha just some moments i remember of our weird poly life... :P
1. 4 idiots that got totally baked by sentosa sun and bought 4 identical tubes of aloe vera gel and went to school applying it everywhere they went. (not forgetting 1 idiot who brought sushi to the picnic. IN MY DEF I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS SUSHI IN THE BOX! hahaha)
2. hand in hand "marching" up the red brick area to class. i think more than once we blocked the entire path.
3. sandy's expensive perfume which she kept spraying at shawn's stinky feet.
4. xiu's amazing sleeping powers. that girl can sleep ANYWHERE.
5. phy always forgetting when her thing comes. and always getting panic attacks and borrowing *STUFF* from us. ESPECIALLY when she's wearing her white pants hahahaha.
6. meiling's *NICE NOT* earrings, 4 quarter jacket and pants during our first abortion presentation. remember how xiu had to FLY through the rest of the presentation just because ml took soooo long talking about baby drops...
7. LEANING TOWER OF PISA! It was a building error! hahahaha. i remember xiu's face when she said that. it was like *EHHH!?*
8. sandy's boooodyshop promotions! i remember i bought alot of weird stuff. including the shimmer musk! I STILL HAVE IT!
9. i remember once xiu got so pissed with that young teacher cos she was linking short skirts to sluttiness or attracting attention or something. hahaha.
10. phy!! who could forget the time they did the play and phy slapped shawn so hard his face turned red. AND not to mention, shawn kicking the chair, hitting the board, and causing the teacher next door to come over and see what was happening!
11. sleepless nights. i remmeber the time we had a 25hr meeting minute. at phy's house. after phy and san fell asleep discussion got halted and xiu and me continued with the report. den jan came online and DEMANDED why we din tell her got meeting, why we not in class etc. we were so angry we all took turns to type on xiu's msn ahahhaa.
12. papaya milkshake. probably sandy's fav drink ever. and speaking of sandy...
13. HOTMAIL TAB! i think this needs no explanation! hehe.
14. anyone remember the hip coconut tree? shawn drew it for our DMD... we din use it in the end though :P
haha just some moments i remember of our weird poly life... :P
ooooooooooooooverview :)
and just after i typed that entry... 2 people were fired from their job. -_____-" i am psychic! hahaha.
i tried sending babyy a e-card T___T but there seems to be some problems with the sending service, not sure if it got thru so i sent him a surprise email too. :X now im kinda hoping he doesnt get the card or it'll seem like the same cos the msg is the same. he may get annoyed that im flooding his mail hehe.
recently i feel very stretched.
home = mind my own money, pack my room, haf to pay mum back for lappie (monthly instalment $150 for a year)
myself = buy new slippers (my slippers are breaking apart!) and shoes (something that i can wear out besides slippers T_T. i spotted a nice pair in AMK but now i cant find it! sob. clothes, but thats a want and that can wait. XD *oh yes and resist the urge to buy acash to wash my NL's HP.*
school = do project. deadline in 1.5 weeks time! and i no time to do research!
work = work work work. must work! resist temptation to take leave if not i have not enuf money to survive me and babyy for the next month!
family = no time for family. no time for anything.
babyy = miss baby. T_T havent seen him in almost a week. ok not really. oh wait. YES its a week! at least i can still see him online :)
friends = have yet to send the video to sandy/phy/xiu. xiu's disturbing me about it but i really have no time to do anything about it. my head's spinning.
i feel like im being stretched in all directions. even a simple comment like "why u dont pick up ur phone de!" from xiu can irritate me at times. i dont pick up because i dont wanna be rushed. i dont wanna be told to do something i dont have the time to do.
i feel like disappearing for a few days. just for myself, just to lie somewhere and relax. no need to check my phones for sms, dun need to ignore phone calls. just... relax. now the oni time i haf to relax is in the nights from 10-12 where i can play game. ok i admit sometimes i play until 2am just because i need the time to relax instead of feeling like my life is mundane.
but on the other hand, my life is way easier den my sis', who i have not seen for days because she's rarely home. she's really bushed with work AND visiting her very lonely friend augustine, who's in hospital. (ok i saw her backside today when she came into my room to open my cupboards for who-knows-what.)
and babyy's really busy too. he's been working so much lately. last night he only got home at 11+ because he had an event to cover. poor babyy. :( hope you get enough sleep kays? :)
phy wont be back until dec, when she grads. means i wont be able to meet her for a year by the time she comes back (cos i din haf time to meet her the last time). :( sad. oh well. hope she decides soon whether she wants to work in aus or come back to sg. (hopes she comes back to sg i miss talking to her on the phone and meeting her more frequently!)
i tried sending babyy a e-card T___T but there seems to be some problems with the sending service, not sure if it got thru so i sent him a surprise email too. :X now im kinda hoping he doesnt get the card or it'll seem like the same cos the msg is the same. he may get annoyed that im flooding his mail hehe.
recently i feel very stretched.
home = mind my own money, pack my room, haf to pay mum back for lappie (monthly instalment $150 for a year)
myself = buy new slippers (my slippers are breaking apart!) and shoes (something that i can wear out besides slippers T_T. i spotted a nice pair in AMK but now i cant find it! sob. clothes, but thats a want and that can wait. XD *oh yes and resist the urge to buy acash to wash my NL's HP.*
school = do project. deadline in 1.5 weeks time! and i no time to do research!
work = work work work. must work! resist temptation to take leave if not i have not enuf money to survive me and babyy for the next month!
family = no time for family. no time for anything.
babyy = miss baby. T_T havent seen him in almost a week. ok not really. oh wait. YES its a week! at least i can still see him online :)
friends = have yet to send the video to sandy/phy/xiu. xiu's disturbing me about it but i really have no time to do anything about it. my head's spinning.
i feel like im being stretched in all directions. even a simple comment like "why u dont pick up ur phone de!" from xiu can irritate me at times. i dont pick up because i dont wanna be rushed. i dont wanna be told to do something i dont have the time to do.
i feel like disappearing for a few days. just for myself, just to lie somewhere and relax. no need to check my phones for sms, dun need to ignore phone calls. just... relax. now the oni time i haf to relax is in the nights from 10-12 where i can play game. ok i admit sometimes i play until 2am just because i need the time to relax instead of feeling like my life is mundane.
but on the other hand, my life is way easier den my sis', who i have not seen for days because she's rarely home. she's really bushed with work AND visiting her very lonely friend augustine, who's in hospital. (ok i saw her backside today when she came into my room to open my cupboards for who-knows-what.)
and babyy's really busy too. he's been working so much lately. last night he only got home at 11+ because he had an event to cover. poor babyy. :( hope you get enough sleep kays? :)
phy wont be back until dec, when she grads. means i wont be able to meet her for a year by the time she comes back (cos i din haf time to meet her the last time). :( sad. oh well. hope she decides soon whether she wants to work in aus or come back to sg. (hopes she comes back to sg i miss talking to her on the phone and meeting her more frequently!)
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once again im going to rant.
seriously. 9am you tell me you're ready for work, and bf is going to send you there. so ok i go without you.
11am, i smsed you twice to ask if you're on the way, or if you're not coming. no replies.
1120am, you FINALLY call me and ask me "did you call my house?" so.. you're only worried i **EXPOSED** your truancy, but not worried about skipping work. and now apparently you have diahorea and cant come to work, and you're obviously not at home. uh huh.
look i understand your bf not local u wanna spend time with him. but because of you everyone's pressuring me and asking me where you are. they've even added RULES and regulations in order to keep you in line, and now we're all suffering for it. not you though, you're not here.
for the whole of yesterday i wondered how you're going to deal with the new rules, and now i realised: it wont apply to you, you'd just lie your way through like you've always did.
and once again i ask myself if i can stand all this and maintain our friendship that's as it is dying and fading into darkness.
guys, pls tell me, am i being anal. what would you do in this case? just ignore and forget about it?
seriously. 9am you tell me you're ready for work, and bf is going to send you there. so ok i go without you.
11am, i smsed you twice to ask if you're on the way, or if you're not coming. no replies.
1120am, you FINALLY call me and ask me "did you call my house?" so.. you're only worried i **EXPOSED** your truancy, but not worried about skipping work. and now apparently you have diahorea and cant come to work, and you're obviously not at home. uh huh.
look i understand your bf not local u wanna spend time with him. but because of you everyone's pressuring me and asking me where you are. they've even added RULES and regulations in order to keep you in line, and now we're all suffering for it. not you though, you're not here.
for the whole of yesterday i wondered how you're going to deal with the new rules, and now i realised: it wont apply to you, you'd just lie your way through like you've always did.
and once again i ask myself if i can stand all this and maintain our friendship that's as it is dying and fading into darkness.
guys, pls tell me, am i being anal. what would you do in this case? just ignore and forget about it?
Jun 1, 2010
^___^
oh and btw, when your boss fires you for "being slow in data entry, and not fit to work in a fast environment", they actually mean "being slow in data entry due to the fact that 99% of the time your data sits there while you spend ur days facebooking and doing who-knows-what." :)
May 31, 2010
yes i do realise this blog has become more of a rant. recently im starting to rethink some parts of myself: the emotions, the anger, the spikes and spites im having recently.
i perfectly understand why some people would put their spouses and boyfriends before anyone else, because in a way i do too, and im aware of it. not consciously, definitely not because i dont want to let him mix with my friends or any other reason. but just because now that im working i find myself wanting to spend more and more time with him, compared to the past where we met everyday.
but the thing is, even if im as busy as i am, and matt is as busy as he is, we dont request each other to take "off days" just to be able to spend some time with each other. 1. we both need the money, and 2. we both know that its not easy to get a job, and this is what will happen should we move on to being more than a couple in the future. even at this stage sometimes we do talk about our future, not just our own individually, but ours as a couple should we make it that far.
but a good friend of mine. (ok at this point im just going to spill everything out, and if she hates me and doesnt want to be my friend anymore, so be it. she'll probably say im being anal and being so secondary school again but whatever. as a friend its my job to wake her up. and even if that means putting our friendship on the line, so be it.)
firstly, i must say i found this job for her. good pay, good hours, not much brain power used. i must admit that when i told my dad (who's a friend of the guy hiring me) that i wanted to ask her along, he had a skeptic point of view. no doubt its because she's had a very bad reputation during secondary school for being a slacker. but i figured everything had changed.
guess not. at first she worked hard. not very hard. with time to slack, with time to facebook and chat. that was fine as long as they worked, in my opinion.
but in recent months she's started to slack even more, to the point that the 100 records we were supposed to clear a day, has dropped from a 70+ to a miserable 12 a day. and why? because she spends the day playing FB and talking to her bf.
now look, as my dad's daughter i have to work hard to keep his reputation, and im trying hard to ignore my colleagues who are obviously unhappy because they feel that they "cannot hit 100 records a day and its impossible" when i manage to. in a way i prove to everyone it can be done. den they ask me to slow down? wtf is that my problem if they cant hit because they're slacking?
nvms, nowbecause she wants to clear the workload given to her, she's taking short cuts. first it was only 1.i beared with it and tried not to complain or talk her out of it. now its almost 3 steps missing and i find myself getting really pissed everytime i see her slacking. and she can TELL me she's bored at work.
then today she tells me she's not going to work cos her boyfriend planned a surprise for her. today? you had 2 weekends to spend with her... why not then? ok maybe im being anal at this point. maybe she volunteered to take the day off (which for her is quite likely). but seriously im pissed because i feel that as a bf you should encourage her to go to work, or at least plan it on another day. FINE, you only haf a month with her before you go back to the U.S. and while we're on the topic of her boyfriend. let me get this out. YOU. YOU THE BOYFRIEND WHO HAVE NOT MET MY BOYFRIEND. YOU HAVE 100% NO RIGHT TO CALL ANYONE A FKER JUST BECAUSE OF 1 INCIDENT. JUST BECAUSE OF 1 SENTENCE BY YOUR GIRLFRIEND (do you comment on girls' undies while going up the escalator) YOU DECIDE TO LABEL HIM AS A FKER. and BTW, that incident was well over 2 years ago OK. neither of you have met him in that 2 years, and i can tell you that he no longer does that anymore. so if its justified that you call him a fker because of what happened 2 years ago, then i guess im fully justified to judge u based on what i knew about you 2 years ago, mr. im willing to buy kristy a prada bag just because i love her. well fk you. if you know him any better i would forgive you and take it as a joke. if you were a girl, i would. but thats not acceptable, especially when you know fully well im reading what you're typing. seriously. and while we're on this topic, if you REALLLLY think you know your gf better than i do, u better think again. seriously. ive known her for how many years more than you. but ok if you think you know her better den me, be my guest. i am honestly sick of this. its like secondary school all over again. i've grown up. you can insult me and call me names (but of course u wouldn't, im ur girlfriend's friend afterall. you're OBLIGED to be nice to me), but NEVER EVER judge my BF based on SOMEONE else's opinion ESPECIALLY when its based on 1 circumstance. i swear. that is one thing i will NEVER forgive. EVER. ask kristy. i dont forgive easy. trust me. i do not forgive easily. at all. i bear very very deep grudges.
so.. good day to you :)
okies im done ranting. not sure if i want ppl to read this or not. still thinking. doubt she'd find it anyway.
i perfectly understand why some people would put their spouses and boyfriends before anyone else, because in a way i do too, and im aware of it. not consciously, definitely not because i dont want to let him mix with my friends or any other reason. but just because now that im working i find myself wanting to spend more and more time with him, compared to the past where we met everyday.
but the thing is, even if im as busy as i am, and matt is as busy as he is, we dont request each other to take "off days" just to be able to spend some time with each other. 1. we both need the money, and 2. we both know that its not easy to get a job, and this is what will happen should we move on to being more than a couple in the future. even at this stage sometimes we do talk about our future, not just our own individually, but ours as a couple should we make it that far.
but a good friend of mine. (ok at this point im just going to spill everything out, and if she hates me and doesnt want to be my friend anymore, so be it. she'll probably say im being anal and being so secondary school again but whatever. as a friend its my job to wake her up. and even if that means putting our friendship on the line, so be it.)
firstly, i must say i found this job for her. good pay, good hours, not much brain power used. i must admit that when i told my dad (who's a friend of the guy hiring me) that i wanted to ask her along, he had a skeptic point of view. no doubt its because she's had a very bad reputation during secondary school for being a slacker. but i figured everything had changed.
guess not. at first she worked hard. not very hard. with time to slack, with time to facebook and chat. that was fine as long as they worked, in my opinion.
but in recent months she's started to slack even more, to the point that the 100 records we were supposed to clear a day, has dropped from a 70+ to a miserable 12 a day. and why? because she spends the day playing FB and talking to her bf.
now look, as my dad's daughter i have to work hard to keep his reputation, and im trying hard to ignore my colleagues who are obviously unhappy because they feel that they "cannot hit 100 records a day and its impossible" when i manage to. in a way i prove to everyone it can be done. den they ask me to slow down? wtf is that my problem if they cant hit because they're slacking?
nvms, nowbecause she wants to clear the workload given to her, she's taking short cuts. first it was only 1.i beared with it and tried not to complain or talk her out of it. now its almost 3 steps missing and i find myself getting really pissed everytime i see her slacking. and she can TELL me she's bored at work.
then today she tells me she's not going to work cos her boyfriend planned a surprise for her. today? you had 2 weekends to spend with her... why not then? ok maybe im being anal at this point. maybe she volunteered to take the day off (which for her is quite likely). but seriously im pissed because i feel that as a bf you should encourage her to go to work, or at least plan it on another day. FINE, you only haf a month with her before you go back to the U.S. and while we're on the topic of her boyfriend. let me get this out. YOU. YOU THE BOYFRIEND WHO HAVE NOT MET MY BOYFRIEND. YOU HAVE 100% NO RIGHT TO CALL ANYONE A FKER JUST BECAUSE OF 1 INCIDENT. JUST BECAUSE OF 1 SENTENCE BY YOUR GIRLFRIEND (do you comment on girls' undies while going up the escalator) YOU DECIDE TO LABEL HIM AS A FKER. and BTW, that incident was well over 2 years ago OK. neither of you have met him in that 2 years, and i can tell you that he no longer does that anymore. so if its justified that you call him a fker because of what happened 2 years ago, then i guess im fully justified to judge u based on what i knew about you 2 years ago, mr. im willing to buy kristy a prada bag just because i love her. well fk you. if you know him any better i would forgive you and take it as a joke. if you were a girl, i would. but thats not acceptable, especially when you know fully well im reading what you're typing. seriously. and while we're on this topic, if you REALLLLY think you know your gf better than i do, u better think again. seriously. ive known her for how many years more than you. but ok if you think you know her better den me, be my guest. i am honestly sick of this. its like secondary school all over again. i've grown up. you can insult me and call me names (but of course u wouldn't, im ur girlfriend's friend afterall. you're OBLIGED to be nice to me), but NEVER EVER judge my BF based on SOMEONE else's opinion ESPECIALLY when its based on 1 circumstance. i swear. that is one thing i will NEVER forgive. EVER. ask kristy. i dont forgive easy. trust me. i do not forgive easily. at all. i bear very very deep grudges.
so.. good day to you :)
okies im done ranting. not sure if i want ppl to read this or not. still thinking. doubt she'd find it anyway.
May 8, 2010
*LATE ENTRY* BABYYS BDAY!
*OMG I REALISED TIHS WAS IN MY DRAFTS! I NV PUBLISHED IT!*
hehe today was baby's bday. ^^ i bought us tickets to watch transformers at gold class GV. the tickets aren't cheap BUT DAMN ITS WORTH IT!
the seats were sooo comfortable. baby din wanna get up! he just kinda sunk all the way into the seat and stayed there.
they even had blankets! very warm blankets. the headrests and leg rests can be arranged so you're in a lying position, AND YET BE ABLE TO SEE THE WHOLE MOVIE. amazing.
i had initially planned to have food and dinner inside. but baby said it will distract us from the movie, which is true. so we pressed the tiny red button, and a waiter discreetly came to take our order! so fun. we ordered a rootbeer float and a pizza. not too bad the food.
At this point i must say the service of GV is very good. i emailed them 2 days before, to ask for the menu. at first i got the typical customer service reply, saying it may take a long time. but within 24hrs they sent me a pdf of their current menu! good service good service!
but because movie ended at 11+, we oni had macs left to eat for dinner. T___T babyy's bday eat macs. sob. but baby seemed happy. :)
the day before i ordered mudpie (yes i know ive annoyed alot of ppl by asking them whats a mudpie.) from this shop. the night b4 after work i rushed over to collect it, and the people were nice enough to give me a free styrofoam box. (its supposed to be free oni if u purchase 80$ and above). i bought 2 things: 1 peppermint icecream with a alcohol testtube (because babyy likes peppermint icecream), and a alchoholics anonymous mudpie. the shop's name is ice3cafe, and their service also is quite good. the boss philip, replies emails from his iphone lol. quite prompt and good helpful advice too. and he even let me buy more dry ice!
den i went home to change and bathe, and left the house with this GIGANTIC styrofoam box. den i went to babyy's house to... well not really surprise him he knew something was happening.. :( but nonetheless i think he didnt expect icecream? :X
^___^ happy bday babyy!!! 22 le! :) muax~ love u!
hehe today was baby's bday. ^^ i bought us tickets to watch transformers at gold class GV. the tickets aren't cheap BUT DAMN ITS WORTH IT!
the seats were sooo comfortable. baby din wanna get up! he just kinda sunk all the way into the seat and stayed there.
they even had blankets! very warm blankets. the headrests and leg rests can be arranged so you're in a lying position, AND YET BE ABLE TO SEE THE WHOLE MOVIE. amazing.
i had initially planned to have food and dinner inside. but baby said it will distract us from the movie, which is true. so we pressed the tiny red button, and a waiter discreetly came to take our order! so fun. we ordered a rootbeer float and a pizza. not too bad the food.
At this point i must say the service of GV is very good. i emailed them 2 days before, to ask for the menu. at first i got the typical customer service reply, saying it may take a long time. but within 24hrs they sent me a pdf of their current menu! good service good service!
but because movie ended at 11+, we oni had macs left to eat for dinner. T___T babyy's bday eat macs. sob. but baby seemed happy. :)
the day before i ordered mudpie (yes i know ive annoyed alot of ppl by asking them whats a mudpie.) from this shop. the night b4 after work i rushed over to collect it, and the people were nice enough to give me a free styrofoam box. (its supposed to be free oni if u purchase 80$ and above). i bought 2 things: 1 peppermint icecream with a alcohol testtube (because babyy likes peppermint icecream), and a alchoholics anonymous mudpie. the shop's name is ice3cafe, and their service also is quite good. the boss philip, replies emails from his iphone lol. quite prompt and good helpful advice too. and he even let me buy more dry ice!
den i went home to change and bathe, and left the house with this GIGANTIC styrofoam box. den i went to babyy's house to... well not really surprise him he knew something was happening.. :( but nonetheless i think he didnt expect icecream? :X
^___^ happy bday babyy!!! 22 le! :) muax~ love u!
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hehehe im happy
hahaha yes my random assortments of photos!!! i know xiu going to kill me cos i never posted this for a v v v v v v long time.
hahahaha phyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
san me and xiu at... ehh dunno where. xiu's hubby paid for that dinner hahaha.
xiu and phy and lido with meeee~~~ hahaha.
my first meal at new house!!!!!
my first baby nochan!!! bought by matt at harbourfront around a year ago!!!
my new baby na-chan! kiaped from the machine by matt hahahaha.
hahahaha phyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
san me and xiu at... ehh dunno where. xiu's hubby paid for that dinner hahaha.
xiu and phy and lido with meeee~~~ hahaha.
my first meal at new house!!!!!
my first baby nochan!!! bought by matt at harbourfront around a year ago!!!
my new baby na-chan! kiaped from the machine by matt hahahaha. *ANYONE NOTICE WHAT MY NACHAN IS SITTING ON!?*
YES YES YES YES YES!!!!! MY NEW PC! I HAVE CONVERTED TO AN APPLE!!!! (after my constant annoyance at vista!)
YES YES YES YES YES!!!!! MY NEW PC! I HAVE CONVERTED TO AN APPLE!!!! (after my constant annoyance at vista!)
and the one who made it all possible :P (yes this was 31st december hehe)
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