and just after i typed that entry... 2 people were fired from their job. -_____-" i am psychic! hahaha.
i tried sending babyy a e-card T___T but there seems to be some problems with the sending service, not sure if it got thru so i sent him a surprise email too. :X now im kinda hoping he doesnt get the card or it'll seem like the same cos the msg is the same. he may get annoyed that im flooding his mail hehe.
recently i feel very stretched.
home = mind my own money, pack my room, haf to pay mum back for lappie (monthly instalment $150 for a year)
myself = buy new slippers (my slippers are breaking apart!) and shoes (something that i can wear out besides slippers T_T. i spotted a nice pair in AMK but now i cant find it! sob. clothes, but thats a want and that can wait. XD *oh yes and resist the urge to buy acash to wash my NL's HP.*
school = do project. deadline in 1.5 weeks time! and i no time to do research!
work = work work work. must work! resist temptation to take leave if not i have not enuf money to survive me and babyy for the next month!
family = no time for family. no time for anything.
babyy = miss baby. T_T havent seen him in almost a week. ok not really. oh wait. YES its a week! at least i can still see him online :)
friends = have yet to send the video to sandy/phy/xiu. xiu's disturbing me about it but i really have no time to do anything about it. my head's spinning.
i feel like im being stretched in all directions. even a simple comment like "why u dont pick up ur phone de!" from xiu can irritate me at times. i dont pick up because i dont wanna be rushed. i dont wanna be told to do something i dont have the time to do.
i feel like disappearing for a few days. just for myself, just to lie somewhere and relax. no need to check my phones for sms, dun need to ignore phone calls. just... relax. now the oni time i haf to relax is in the nights from 10-12 where i can play game. ok i admit sometimes i play until 2am just because i need the time to relax instead of feeling like my life is mundane.
but on the other hand, my life is way easier den my sis', who i have not seen for days because she's rarely home. she's really bushed with work AND visiting her very lonely friend augustine, who's in hospital. (ok i saw her backside today when she came into my room to open my cupboards for who-knows-what.)
and babyy's really busy too. he's been working so much lately. last night he only got home at 11+ because he had an event to cover. poor babyy. :( hope you get enough sleep kays? :)
phy wont be back until dec, when she grads. means i wont be able to meet her for a year by the time she comes back (cos i din haf time to meet her the last time). :( sad. oh well. hope she decides soon whether she wants to work in aus or come back to sg. (hopes she comes back to sg i miss talking to her on the phone and meeting her more frequently!)
Jun 2, 2010
rantrantrant$#(@*#&%@
once again im going to rant.
seriously. 9am you tell me you're ready for work, and bf is going to send you there. so ok i go without you.
11am, i smsed you twice to ask if you're on the way, or if you're not coming. no replies.
1120am, you FINALLY call me and ask me "did you call my house?" so.. you're only worried i **EXPOSED** your truancy, but not worried about skipping work. and now apparently you have diahorea and cant come to work, and you're obviously not at home. uh huh.
look i understand your bf not local u wanna spend time with him. but because of you everyone's pressuring me and asking me where you are. they've even added RULES and regulations in order to keep you in line, and now we're all suffering for it. not you though, you're not here.
for the whole of yesterday i wondered how you're going to deal with the new rules, and now i realised: it wont apply to you, you'd just lie your way through like you've always did.
and once again i ask myself if i can stand all this and maintain our friendship that's as it is dying and fading into darkness.
guys, pls tell me, am i being anal. what would you do in this case? just ignore and forget about it?
seriously. 9am you tell me you're ready for work, and bf is going to send you there. so ok i go without you.
11am, i smsed you twice to ask if you're on the way, or if you're not coming. no replies.
1120am, you FINALLY call me and ask me "did you call my house?" so.. you're only worried i **EXPOSED** your truancy, but not worried about skipping work. and now apparently you have diahorea and cant come to work, and you're obviously not at home. uh huh.
look i understand your bf not local u wanna spend time with him. but because of you everyone's pressuring me and asking me where you are. they've even added RULES and regulations in order to keep you in line, and now we're all suffering for it. not you though, you're not here.
for the whole of yesterday i wondered how you're going to deal with the new rules, and now i realised: it wont apply to you, you'd just lie your way through like you've always did.
and once again i ask myself if i can stand all this and maintain our friendship that's as it is dying and fading into darkness.
guys, pls tell me, am i being anal. what would you do in this case? just ignore and forget about it?
Jun 1, 2010
^___^
oh and btw, when your boss fires you for "being slow in data entry, and not fit to work in a fast environment", they actually mean "being slow in data entry due to the fact that 99% of the time your data sits there while you spend ur days facebooking and doing who-knows-what." :)
May 31, 2010
yes i do realise this blog has become more of a rant. recently im starting to rethink some parts of myself: the emotions, the anger, the spikes and spites im having recently.
i perfectly understand why some people would put their spouses and boyfriends before anyone else, because in a way i do too, and im aware of it. not consciously, definitely not because i dont want to let him mix with my friends or any other reason. but just because now that im working i find myself wanting to spend more and more time with him, compared to the past where we met everyday.
but the thing is, even if im as busy as i am, and matt is as busy as he is, we dont request each other to take "off days" just to be able to spend some time with each other. 1. we both need the money, and 2. we both know that its not easy to get a job, and this is what will happen should we move on to being more than a couple in the future. even at this stage sometimes we do talk about our future, not just our own individually, but ours as a couple should we make it that far.
but a good friend of mine. (ok at this point im just going to spill everything out, and if she hates me and doesnt want to be my friend anymore, so be it. she'll probably say im being anal and being so secondary school again but whatever. as a friend its my job to wake her up. and even if that means putting our friendship on the line, so be it.)
firstly, i must say i found this job for her. good pay, good hours, not much brain power used. i must admit that when i told my dad (who's a friend of the guy hiring me) that i wanted to ask her along, he had a skeptic point of view. no doubt its because she's had a very bad reputation during secondary school for being a slacker. but i figured everything had changed.
guess not. at first she worked hard. not very hard. with time to slack, with time to facebook and chat. that was fine as long as they worked, in my opinion.
but in recent months she's started to slack even more, to the point that the 100 records we were supposed to clear a day, has dropped from a 70+ to a miserable 12 a day. and why? because she spends the day playing FB and talking to her bf.
now look, as my dad's daughter i have to work hard to keep his reputation, and im trying hard to ignore my colleagues who are obviously unhappy because they feel that they "cannot hit 100 records a day and its impossible" when i manage to. in a way i prove to everyone it can be done. den they ask me to slow down? wtf is that my problem if they cant hit because they're slacking?
nvms, nowbecause she wants to clear the workload given to her, she's taking short cuts. first it was only 1.i beared with it and tried not to complain or talk her out of it. now its almost 3 steps missing and i find myself getting really pissed everytime i see her slacking. and she can TELL me she's bored at work.
then today she tells me she's not going to work cos her boyfriend planned a surprise for her. today? you had 2 weekends to spend with her... why not then? ok maybe im being anal at this point. maybe she volunteered to take the day off (which for her is quite likely). but seriously im pissed because i feel that as a bf you should encourage her to go to work, or at least plan it on another day. FINE, you only haf a month with her before you go back to the U.S. and while we're on the topic of her boyfriend. let me get this out. YOU. YOU THE BOYFRIEND WHO HAVE NOT MET MY BOYFRIEND. YOU HAVE 100% NO RIGHT TO CALL ANYONE A FKER JUST BECAUSE OF 1 INCIDENT. JUST BECAUSE OF 1 SENTENCE BY YOUR GIRLFRIEND (do you comment on girls' undies while going up the escalator) YOU DECIDE TO LABEL HIM AS A FKER. and BTW, that incident was well over 2 years ago OK. neither of you have met him in that 2 years, and i can tell you that he no longer does that anymore. so if its justified that you call him a fker because of what happened 2 years ago, then i guess im fully justified to judge u based on what i knew about you 2 years ago, mr. im willing to buy kristy a prada bag just because i love her. well fk you. if you know him any better i would forgive you and take it as a joke. if you were a girl, i would. but thats not acceptable, especially when you know fully well im reading what you're typing. seriously. and while we're on this topic, if you REALLLLY think you know your gf better than i do, u better think again. seriously. ive known her for how many years more than you. but ok if you think you know her better den me, be my guest. i am honestly sick of this. its like secondary school all over again. i've grown up. you can insult me and call me names (but of course u wouldn't, im ur girlfriend's friend afterall. you're OBLIGED to be nice to me), but NEVER EVER judge my BF based on SOMEONE else's opinion ESPECIALLY when its based on 1 circumstance. i swear. that is one thing i will NEVER forgive. EVER. ask kristy. i dont forgive easy. trust me. i do not forgive easily. at all. i bear very very deep grudges.
so.. good day to you :)
okies im done ranting. not sure if i want ppl to read this or not. still thinking. doubt she'd find it anyway.
i perfectly understand why some people would put their spouses and boyfriends before anyone else, because in a way i do too, and im aware of it. not consciously, definitely not because i dont want to let him mix with my friends or any other reason. but just because now that im working i find myself wanting to spend more and more time with him, compared to the past where we met everyday.
but the thing is, even if im as busy as i am, and matt is as busy as he is, we dont request each other to take "off days" just to be able to spend some time with each other. 1. we both need the money, and 2. we both know that its not easy to get a job, and this is what will happen should we move on to being more than a couple in the future. even at this stage sometimes we do talk about our future, not just our own individually, but ours as a couple should we make it that far.
but a good friend of mine. (ok at this point im just going to spill everything out, and if she hates me and doesnt want to be my friend anymore, so be it. she'll probably say im being anal and being so secondary school again but whatever. as a friend its my job to wake her up. and even if that means putting our friendship on the line, so be it.)
firstly, i must say i found this job for her. good pay, good hours, not much brain power used. i must admit that when i told my dad (who's a friend of the guy hiring me) that i wanted to ask her along, he had a skeptic point of view. no doubt its because she's had a very bad reputation during secondary school for being a slacker. but i figured everything had changed.
guess not. at first she worked hard. not very hard. with time to slack, with time to facebook and chat. that was fine as long as they worked, in my opinion.
but in recent months she's started to slack even more, to the point that the 100 records we were supposed to clear a day, has dropped from a 70+ to a miserable 12 a day. and why? because she spends the day playing FB and talking to her bf.
now look, as my dad's daughter i have to work hard to keep his reputation, and im trying hard to ignore my colleagues who are obviously unhappy because they feel that they "cannot hit 100 records a day and its impossible" when i manage to. in a way i prove to everyone it can be done. den they ask me to slow down? wtf is that my problem if they cant hit because they're slacking?
nvms, nowbecause she wants to clear the workload given to her, she's taking short cuts. first it was only 1.i beared with it and tried not to complain or talk her out of it. now its almost 3 steps missing and i find myself getting really pissed everytime i see her slacking. and she can TELL me she's bored at work.
then today she tells me she's not going to work cos her boyfriend planned a surprise for her. today? you had 2 weekends to spend with her... why not then? ok maybe im being anal at this point. maybe she volunteered to take the day off (which for her is quite likely). but seriously im pissed because i feel that as a bf you should encourage her to go to work, or at least plan it on another day. FINE, you only haf a month with her before you go back to the U.S. and while we're on the topic of her boyfriend. let me get this out. YOU. YOU THE BOYFRIEND WHO HAVE NOT MET MY BOYFRIEND. YOU HAVE 100% NO RIGHT TO CALL ANYONE A FKER JUST BECAUSE OF 1 INCIDENT. JUST BECAUSE OF 1 SENTENCE BY YOUR GIRLFRIEND (do you comment on girls' undies while going up the escalator) YOU DECIDE TO LABEL HIM AS A FKER. and BTW, that incident was well over 2 years ago OK. neither of you have met him in that 2 years, and i can tell you that he no longer does that anymore. so if its justified that you call him a fker because of what happened 2 years ago, then i guess im fully justified to judge u based on what i knew about you 2 years ago, mr. im willing to buy kristy a prada bag just because i love her. well fk you. if you know him any better i would forgive you and take it as a joke. if you were a girl, i would. but thats not acceptable, especially when you know fully well im reading what you're typing. seriously. and while we're on this topic, if you REALLLLY think you know your gf better than i do, u better think again. seriously. ive known her for how many years more than you. but ok if you think you know her better den me, be my guest. i am honestly sick of this. its like secondary school all over again. i've grown up. you can insult me and call me names (but of course u wouldn't, im ur girlfriend's friend afterall. you're OBLIGED to be nice to me), but NEVER EVER judge my BF based on SOMEONE else's opinion ESPECIALLY when its based on 1 circumstance. i swear. that is one thing i will NEVER forgive. EVER. ask kristy. i dont forgive easy. trust me. i do not forgive easily. at all. i bear very very deep grudges.
so.. good day to you :)
okies im done ranting. not sure if i want ppl to read this or not. still thinking. doubt she'd find it anyway.
May 8, 2010
*LATE ENTRY* BABYYS BDAY!
*OMG I REALISED TIHS WAS IN MY DRAFTS! I NV PUBLISHED IT!*
hehe today was baby's bday. ^^ i bought us tickets to watch transformers at gold class GV. the tickets aren't cheap BUT DAMN ITS WORTH IT!
the seats were sooo comfortable. baby din wanna get up! he just kinda sunk all the way into the seat and stayed there.
they even had blankets! very warm blankets. the headrests and leg rests can be arranged so you're in a lying position, AND YET BE ABLE TO SEE THE WHOLE MOVIE. amazing.
i had initially planned to have food and dinner inside. but baby said it will distract us from the movie, which is true. so we pressed the tiny red button, and a waiter discreetly came to take our order! so fun. we ordered a rootbeer float and a pizza. not too bad the food.
At this point i must say the service of GV is very good. i emailed them 2 days before, to ask for the menu. at first i got the typical customer service reply, saying it may take a long time. but within 24hrs they sent me a pdf of their current menu! good service good service!
but because movie ended at 11+, we oni had macs left to eat for dinner. T___T babyy's bday eat macs. sob. but baby seemed happy. :)
the day before i ordered mudpie (yes i know ive annoyed alot of ppl by asking them whats a mudpie.) from this shop. the night b4 after work i rushed over to collect it, and the people were nice enough to give me a free styrofoam box. (its supposed to be free oni if u purchase 80$ and above). i bought 2 things: 1 peppermint icecream with a alcohol testtube (because babyy likes peppermint icecream), and a alchoholics anonymous mudpie. the shop's name is ice3cafe, and their service also is quite good. the boss philip, replies emails from his iphone lol. quite prompt and good helpful advice too. and he even let me buy more dry ice!
den i went home to change and bathe, and left the house with this GIGANTIC styrofoam box. den i went to babyy's house to... well not really surprise him he knew something was happening.. :( but nonetheless i think he didnt expect icecream? :X
^___^ happy bday babyy!!! 22 le! :) muax~ love u!
hehe today was baby's bday. ^^ i bought us tickets to watch transformers at gold class GV. the tickets aren't cheap BUT DAMN ITS WORTH IT!
the seats were sooo comfortable. baby din wanna get up! he just kinda sunk all the way into the seat and stayed there.
they even had blankets! very warm blankets. the headrests and leg rests can be arranged so you're in a lying position, AND YET BE ABLE TO SEE THE WHOLE MOVIE. amazing.
i had initially planned to have food and dinner inside. but baby said it will distract us from the movie, which is true. so we pressed the tiny red button, and a waiter discreetly came to take our order! so fun. we ordered a rootbeer float and a pizza. not too bad the food.
At this point i must say the service of GV is very good. i emailed them 2 days before, to ask for the menu. at first i got the typical customer service reply, saying it may take a long time. but within 24hrs they sent me a pdf of their current menu! good service good service!
but because movie ended at 11+, we oni had macs left to eat for dinner. T___T babyy's bday eat macs. sob. but baby seemed happy. :)
the day before i ordered mudpie (yes i know ive annoyed alot of ppl by asking them whats a mudpie.) from this shop. the night b4 after work i rushed over to collect it, and the people were nice enough to give me a free styrofoam box. (its supposed to be free oni if u purchase 80$ and above). i bought 2 things: 1 peppermint icecream with a alcohol testtube (because babyy likes peppermint icecream), and a alchoholics anonymous mudpie. the shop's name is ice3cafe, and their service also is quite good. the boss philip, replies emails from his iphone lol. quite prompt and good helpful advice too. and he even let me buy more dry ice!
den i went home to change and bathe, and left the house with this GIGANTIC styrofoam box. den i went to babyy's house to... well not really surprise him he knew something was happening.. :( but nonetheless i think he didnt expect icecream? :X
^___^ happy bday babyy!!! 22 le! :) muax~ love u!
Apr 30, 2010
Mar 3, 2010
Feb 18, 2010
hehehe im happy
hahaha yes my random assortments of photos!!! i know xiu going to kill me cos i never posted this for a v v v v v v long time.
hahahaha phyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
san me and xiu at... ehh dunno where. xiu's hubby paid for that dinner hahaha.
xiu and phy and lido with meeee~~~ hahaha.
my first meal at new house!!!!!
my first baby nochan!!! bought by matt at harbourfront around a year ago!!!
my new baby na-chan! kiaped from the machine by matt hahahaha.
hahahaha phyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
san me and xiu at... ehh dunno where. xiu's hubby paid for that dinner hahaha.
xiu and phy and lido with meeee~~~ hahaha.
my first meal at new house!!!!!
my first baby nochan!!! bought by matt at harbourfront around a year ago!!!
my new baby na-chan! kiaped from the machine by matt hahahaha. *ANYONE NOTICE WHAT MY NACHAN IS SITTING ON!?*
YES YES YES YES YES!!!!! MY NEW PC! I HAVE CONVERTED TO AN APPLE!!!! (after my constant annoyance at vista!)
YES YES YES YES YES!!!!! MY NEW PC! I HAVE CONVERTED TO AN APPLE!!!! (after my constant annoyance at vista!)
and the one who made it all possible :P (yes this was 31st december hehe)
Dec 17, 2009
i cry. silently.
i want to disappear. i want to run away and never come back, to a place where no one knows me, where i can be alone with the biggest regret ive ever had to bear. only he understands and only he will never judge me. only he will forever need me.
i want so much to turn back time and make it ok. to undo all the things ive done. ive heard a song which basically sums it all up.
~~
It doesnt take much to learn
That the bridges that you burn
Leave you stranded, feeling alone.
It doesnt take much to cry
When you're living in a lie
And decieving that someone will care
And if i could turn back the time,
I would put you first in my life.
And i would risk it all for you
To prove my love is true
I've built a wall around my heart that will only break apart for you
You've changed the way i feel
So tell me what's the deal
Don't say, don't say its too late.
Now, hills are getting hard to climb
Running out of time
My decisions are pending on you
I will accept the blame
For burning out the flame
Hoping the story will twist once again
And if i could turn back the time
I would put you first in my life...
~~
I know its taking me a lot to not run, to not just leave. Im practically gluing myself to the spot and forcing myself to say everything just so i know i cant run away anymore. But the feeling is there. I can sense it. I want to run, to go so far that i know i cant make any more mistakes. Ive done enough damage in this life time.
I dread tomorrow. I really do. Im not hoping for anything anymore. Ive done too much to even think about hoping. Tomorrow, i come clean. I've already decided to do it and i'm not changing my mind. But even now i still want to find an excuse to run away. To delay the last day. To make sure tomorrow never comes. But i also dont want to stay like this, living in the shadows, always being afraid.
i want so much to turn back time and make it ok. to undo all the things ive done. ive heard a song which basically sums it all up.
~~
It doesnt take much to learn
That the bridges that you burn
Leave you stranded, feeling alone.
It doesnt take much to cry
When you're living in a lie
And decieving that someone will care
And if i could turn back the time,
I would put you first in my life.
And i would risk it all for you
To prove my love is true
I've built a wall around my heart that will only break apart for you
You've changed the way i feel
So tell me what's the deal
Don't say, don't say its too late.
Now, hills are getting hard to climb
Running out of time
My decisions are pending on you
I will accept the blame
For burning out the flame
Hoping the story will twist once again
And if i could turn back the time
I would put you first in my life...
~~
I know its taking me a lot to not run, to not just leave. Im practically gluing myself to the spot and forcing myself to say everything just so i know i cant run away anymore. But the feeling is there. I can sense it. I want to run, to go so far that i know i cant make any more mistakes. Ive done enough damage in this life time.
I dread tomorrow. I really do. Im not hoping for anything anymore. Ive done too much to even think about hoping. Tomorrow, i come clean. I've already decided to do it and i'm not changing my mind. But even now i still want to find an excuse to run away. To delay the last day. To make sure tomorrow never comes. But i also dont want to stay like this, living in the shadows, always being afraid.
Dec 10, 2009
wiki is hilarious!
ok i was doing my school work la, den i was reading wiki. den i noticed this very INTERESTING thing i just HAD to screenshot to post. :D
click HERE to see it bigger!... :)
click HERE to see it bigger!... :)
Dec 8, 2009
weird day + great night
ok my new module is officially weird. its like MMR, but without the actual research! @_@ i dun get it, its like we learn the theory but we dont need to apply it. so we're PRESUMING we did the research. i guess it is the same when it comes down to it but it feels weird not doing the actual research. i find myself thinking of MMR and our SMRT campaign days, slogging over the computer, not sleeping, notes piled and research piled even higher, everyone slowly degenerating into zombies. hehe.
but ya anyway my new module. we're learning research and we had a presentation on sat. it was like a 7min presentation. all of us went there dam tired. my teammates were dam sleepy too. there was Don, who worked late last night until 3+4am, den came to school at 12 (he works at a pub/club/bar so you can imagine he wasnt exactly sober). another girl Yen who had to work and couldnt come, Kayee who doesnt know the topic well, Liping who came late to class, and me who slept arnd 3am and woke up at 6am to go to school by 9am. had to sit through the lecture too.
*SIDETRACK*
ok maybe because im sleepy and sick at that point. Don was supposed to be the presenter, but seeing as he not sober I didnt want to force him to coming for presentation. Now since the rest of the girls were later (i came at 9pm, Don and Kayee came at 12pm the rest abt 12.30 to 1pm), we decided to go with "whoever last to come shall present". I was honestly too tired to talk or even communicate much at that point, and was coughing quite badly. And as you girls probably know speaking isnt my strong point. So Ros was the one who came late. (ros is this malay girl in my grp) We asked her to present and she just said "No." didnt even ask why Don cannot, or why cant it be anyone else. First of all she came late (she said she had to work but her dressing that day make me seriously doubt it. i bet you she woke up late), and then sat there. Didnt even engage in conversation. Went out a few times to talk on the phone. Presentation start at 1pm, she comes in at like 12.55pm. We even wrote a script for the presenter so its not like you're unprepared.
long story short in the end i presented. but it made me think of poly life. abit of ML, abit of... well you figure out the rest. maybe its just me being touchy and annoyed because i didnt get enough sleep, but i was really quite upset that day.
*END OF SIDETRACK*
after presentation, i reached home at 4pm. the plan was for me and matt to meet his NS buddy, who wanted to go club with this girl cos he likes her. so we were supposed to be like middlemen, go out as a group kinda thing. we met at dhoby, turns out they alrdy became a couple LOL. from middlemen become double date. watched a movie together, den went clubbing. super tired after that, matt got drunk again. (well he had to drink most of it cos i cant drink for nuts, so its totally expected)
Yes that was saturday night.
TODAY!
same thing again. project got me annoyed. i feel that some ppl are just either not paying attention or slightly slower than the rest. oh well. i think the worst part is i cant complain to anyone because unlike poly i dont know these girls well enough: heck they know her better than they know me anyway. so its like im stuck with all these stupid feelings and i cant complain. well i did feel better complaining to matt a little through sms.
tmr is his IPPT, GOOD LUCK :D
cant wait for phy to be back. i still have shopping to do! and my furniture is coming in soon so i can take pics for you guys to see (my new house of course). unless you wanna travel alll the way down to visit, i also dont mind :P
but ya anyway my new module. we're learning research and we had a presentation on sat. it was like a 7min presentation. all of us went there dam tired. my teammates were dam sleepy too. there was Don, who worked late last night until 3+4am, den came to school at 12 (he works at a pub/club/bar so you can imagine he wasnt exactly sober). another girl Yen who had to work and couldnt come, Kayee who doesnt know the topic well, Liping who came late to class, and me who slept arnd 3am and woke up at 6am to go to school by 9am. had to sit through the lecture too.
*SIDETRACK*
ok maybe because im sleepy and sick at that point. Don was supposed to be the presenter, but seeing as he not sober I didnt want to force him to coming for presentation. Now since the rest of the girls were later (i came at 9pm, Don and Kayee came at 12pm the rest abt 12.30 to 1pm), we decided to go with "whoever last to come shall present". I was honestly too tired to talk or even communicate much at that point, and was coughing quite badly. And as you girls probably know speaking isnt my strong point. So Ros was the one who came late. (ros is this malay girl in my grp) We asked her to present and she just said "No." didnt even ask why Don cannot, or why cant it be anyone else. First of all she came late (she said she had to work but her dressing that day make me seriously doubt it. i bet you she woke up late), and then sat there. Didnt even engage in conversation. Went out a few times to talk on the phone. Presentation start at 1pm, she comes in at like 12.55pm. We even wrote a script for the presenter so its not like you're unprepared.
long story short in the end i presented. but it made me think of poly life. abit of ML, abit of... well you figure out the rest. maybe its just me being touchy and annoyed because i didnt get enough sleep, but i was really quite upset that day.
*END OF SIDETRACK*
after presentation, i reached home at 4pm. the plan was for me and matt to meet his NS buddy, who wanted to go club with this girl cos he likes her. so we were supposed to be like middlemen, go out as a group kinda thing. we met at dhoby, turns out they alrdy became a couple LOL. from middlemen become double date. watched a movie together, den went clubbing. super tired after that, matt got drunk again. (well he had to drink most of it cos i cant drink for nuts, so its totally expected)
Yes that was saturday night.
TODAY!
same thing again. project got me annoyed. i feel that some ppl are just either not paying attention or slightly slower than the rest. oh well. i think the worst part is i cant complain to anyone because unlike poly i dont know these girls well enough: heck they know her better than they know me anyway. so its like im stuck with all these stupid feelings and i cant complain. well i did feel better complaining to matt a little through sms.
tmr is his IPPT, GOOD LUCK :D
cant wait for phy to be back. i still have shopping to do! and my furniture is coming in soon so i can take pics for you guys to see (my new house of course). unless you wanna travel alll the way down to visit, i also dont mind :P
Dec 1, 2009
move move move movemovemove!
oh yea, for those who dont know, ive officially moved house! am in a new house for the past week. my furniture isnt 100% here yet, but when it is i promise id take pics let you all see :D
Nov 30, 2009
Another Night Out
woots. yes last night i went for another craaaaaaaaaaaaaazy night with matt. really the weirdest craziest night ive EVER had.
we tried to finish the vodka we left over the last friday (by we i meant matt and his fren cos i got woozy after like 1 glass HAHAHAHA).
after drinking (yes i puked. i think i was walking too fast or moving around too much, closing my eyes and all that. embarassing T_T) we went in to dance. there was this short "tussle" between bouncers and some girls who got thrown out. i kinda turned my head really fast about 90degrees to see what was happening (never see fight before, interesting leh!) and suddenly my eyes just blacked out.
its not like i was unconscious. i was semi-standing. its just that i couldnt SEE anything. at first i really freaked out cos i felt really blind. like my eyes totally stopped absorbing light or someone pulled a blindfold on me. i panicked and nearly lost my balance. after standing in queue for a while, my vision came back but it was really weird. i remember i couldnt see shadows much, and i was staring at this little window emitting yellow light towards the right of the bouncer next to the door, and i saw these weird dark blue/black patches. kinda looked like this:
*im referring to the black marks* it was super scary but after awhile it cleared up.
*im referring to the black marks* it was super scary but after awhile it cleared up.
we went in and danced the night away. super fun. dance until my whole body ached and i was soooo tired. but i had so much fun. now one of my toes has a TINY blister. :P but its totally worth it. and matt went super crazy, started dancing with his friend too hahaha. super funny to watch.
school starts tomorrow. sad! still need meet xiu for lunch! buy what for her for christmas i also nt sure yet. hahahaha! mayb i buy something CHALLENGING for once. :D
Nov 18, 2009
Good Lunch, Amazing Night
beware this will be a gigantic post!
well, first i must say that i did not sleep much the night before. i spent most of the night reading blogs and watching youtube. 50% of me was afraid that i was going to be late to meet xiu haha.
but turns out i wasn't late at all. ok so i was, but by like 15mins. she brought me to this little cozy cafe where we had SALAD for lunch. (and she was smart enough to bring an umbrella. because it started raining)
This was my salad, some, bacon potato and onion salad. Not bad really, i loved the sauce glazed on the salad. reminded me abit of the salad i used to eat in secondary school but a lot better.
well, first i must say that i did not sleep much the night before. i spent most of the night reading blogs and watching youtube. 50% of me was afraid that i was going to be late to meet xiu haha.
but turns out i wasn't late at all. ok so i was, but by like 15mins. she brought me to this little cozy cafe where we had SALAD for lunch. (and she was smart enough to bring an umbrella. because it started raining)
This was my salad, some, bacon potato and onion salad. Not bad really, i loved the sauce glazed on the salad. reminded me abit of the salad i used to eat in secondary school but a lot better.
Xiu also ordered a salad, something with beef inside. forgot the name already. we talked about azealea, and a lot of other rubbish. the place was really cozy and quiet.we even had desert after that! desert was... a... peach with icecream thingy (forgot the term, but it was hot and cold at the same time). i would have loved it a lot more if it wasn't peach, because it was sooo much sweeter than i thought. but it was super nice. we also ordered a bread pudding. first time eating bread pudding. i liked the bread, but didnt like the pudding. and we didn't manage to finish everything. the salads were damn nice though. XD
after that we sat there drinking water, and talking about poly life and her work stuff. talked abit about the upcoming chalet and about lea. lea seems to have grown a lot, she sounds cute, its been a long time since i last saw her. wonder how big she is and how much she's grown. xiu says she can call mama and simple words, but the best part was when xiu was telling me how she would grab everything and try to reach high tables. i can only imagine the weird mess at her house now. :) (btw xiu i hope you solved your problem xD nothing cant be solved de)
on the way back to the MRT (in a bigbig rain that xiu prepared well for), we spotted this little japanese restaurant, and its decided that that's the next place we'll go! cant wait man! they have weird food but it looks good and fusion styled.
~*~*~
i went home, took at 3hour sleep. when i woke up, i met matt at bishan. we initially wanted to go for a movie (2012 is showing!) he treated me to cafe cartel. i finally got to eat my cream pasta!!!! :D but sadly there was no nice movie. so after a lot of organising on his part, we decided to go clubbing at st james with yong zhi. yong zhi is his NS friend, whom i only met once on halloween. i went home to change and we headed over.
after meeting yongzhi we went into the club to dump my bad. (good point to note here on out i had no phone and nothing. i was wearing a black dress so i had no pockets T_T) we then went out to drink (vodka with lime mixer). honestly i thought it was super nice to drink, unfortunately i had a bad sore throat, so the lime only made it hard to swallow after a while. had a great time chatting and swinging on the chairs, though id admit the swinging got me much more high than i would be on a seated chair. but it was FUN!
then we went in to dance a while, before realising how thirsty we were. walked back to harbourfront to get a drink from cheers (the 7/11 is not 24hrs T_T) before heading back to the dance floor. danced until the club closed.
matt and i took a cab home, and went home to bed. reached home at 4am. :D and had to move house the next day somemore!
but yeah, that was the end of my first clubbing experience. i never knew it'd be soooo crowded and i was so afraid id step on someone's toes with my heels! (not to mention afraid id fall down... super embarassing!)
the next day i had to move house. and for that day until today, its been hectic, because half my stuff is here, and the rest of them is at my old house. its really confusing and i think ive lost my glasses because i cant find them at either house. my new room only has a mattress and a cupboard. there's no table so i cant put anything here yet. half my stuff are still in boxes! XD but i think im getting a sofa in my room... it matches my cupboard!
new house pictures when the new furniture comes in! :) would invite you guys to visit but 1. u stay too far and 2. there is nothing here. only nice floor and painted wall. :P
Nov 1, 2009
happy halloween
well halloween is the unexpectedly happiest day of my life. :D too many reasons to explain, but even thinking back makes me laugh and laugh. so much fun, so little time. i keep staring at the pictures and laughing to myself, thinking what a great time we had.
though everyone got drunk and wasted (cept for me seeing i didnt drink anything mroe than 1 TINNNY cup). it was quite funny. ns men at its best hehe. :)
matt's back in camp now, should be sound asleep by now. :D im going to bed soon too. :D
though everyone got drunk and wasted (cept for me seeing i didnt drink anything mroe than 1 TINNNY cup). it was quite funny. ns men at its best hehe. :)
matt's back in camp now, should be sound asleep by now. :D im going to bed soon too. :D
Oct 31, 2009
today is probably one of the happiest days of my life :) though it was just the same, a movie, arcade, dinner, and home, but something was different. i dont care anymore whether i think too much or whether it really means what i think it means. all i want to know is im happy and im satisfied. ive missed him so much the past week i thought i was crazy.
but today, i felt happy, just being by his side and being near him. being able to be close to him and being able to hold him. his hands were warm, and i felt safe in his arms.
i love you :)
but today, i felt happy, just being by his side and being near him. being able to be close to him and being able to hold him. his hands were warm, and i felt safe in his arms.
i love you :)
well since i obviously cannot sms phyphy and tell her HAPPY BDAY!!!! i shall do it here.
yes yes i am aware that im about 2 hours late... but in my defence i just got home!!!!
sooo... yeahhhh... :) here's my present to our dearest phyphy all the way over in "the other part of the world that's not singapore!"
first you must note that i spent some time rummaging through her facebook to find some pictures to edit. and i must say, looking through those folders made me realise what fun we used to have.
harry potter themed party a year ago seemed SOOOO chaotic @_@ thinking about it just makes me laugh. how xiu panicked, how i had to RUN, (how we even TESTED RUNNING!), how sandy pretended she didnt know WHY the guard said 4 people... how we stayed up to make the outfits and xiu had to paint the hat, AMIDST ALL THE PROJECTS somemore.. haha was fun planning it though. great to see her face. the typical *is this really my house anot har... whats going on leh* face.
but anyway, *phy before u see the picture below please dont scold me HAHAHAHA* happy bday phyphy~~~ koala turns 22. old liao :D
yes yes thats phy. i found it hilarious :) cant wait for you to come back!
yes yes i am aware that im about 2 hours late... but in my defence i just got home!!!!
sooo... yeahhhh... :) here's my present to our dearest phyphy all the way over in "the other part of the world that's not singapore!"
first you must note that i spent some time rummaging through her facebook to find some pictures to edit. and i must say, looking through those folders made me realise what fun we used to have.
harry potter themed party a year ago seemed SOOOO chaotic @_@ thinking about it just makes me laugh. how xiu panicked, how i had to RUN, (how we even TESTED RUNNING!), how sandy pretended she didnt know WHY the guard said 4 people... how we stayed up to make the outfits and xiu had to paint the hat, AMIDST ALL THE PROJECTS somemore.. haha was fun planning it though. great to see her face. the typical *is this really my house anot har... whats going on leh* face.
but anyway, *phy before u see the picture below please dont scold me HAHAHAHA* happy bday phyphy~~~ koala turns 22. old liao :D
yes yes thats phy. i found it hilarious :) cant wait for you to come back!
Oct 7, 2009
BIRTHDAY POST!
hahaha. first of all thanks to all who smsed me happy birthday, and also thanks to phy who dedicated a blog entry to me xDD! thanks to calvin who dropped by the blogg~
well my birthday celebration started promptly at midnight, though i didnt really know it haha. just went for a movie with matt, suddenly he just said "happy birthday~". i was so happy i laughed until my face turned red.
this birthday didnt constitute of drinking, (thank goodness). watched surrogates, ate at hong kong cafe, then decided to watch fame. fame's not too bad but i prefer the dancing and singing compared to the actual plot.
xiu mentioned in her sms how weird it feels that we dont celebrate each other's birthdays together anymore. i guess with work and stuff, it's hard to. but still it was a nice celebration, a very enjoyable 21st. =) unforgettable for all the reasons.
^^ i want chalet someone pls reply my emails! haha
well my birthday celebration started promptly at midnight, though i didnt really know it haha. just went for a movie with matt, suddenly he just said "happy birthday~". i was so happy i laughed until my face turned red.
this birthday didnt constitute of drinking, (thank goodness). watched surrogates, ate at hong kong cafe, then decided to watch fame. fame's not too bad but i prefer the dancing and singing compared to the actual plot.
xiu mentioned in her sms how weird it feels that we dont celebrate each other's birthdays together anymore. i guess with work and stuff, it's hard to. but still it was a nice celebration, a very enjoyable 21st. =) unforgettable for all the reasons.
^^ i want chalet someone pls reply my emails! haha
Oct 3, 2009
Sep 21, 2009
got bored of my old skin =x haha. this is more soothing to the eye i think? =x going to meet xiuzhi tomorrow! cant wait. too bad sandy cant make it. school starts tomorrow. @_@ no idea what its going to be like.
i met sandy ON THE BUS! thats amazing considering where she lives! hahaha. heard from weiting recently too~ hope everyone's doing okay!
i met sandy ON THE BUS! thats amazing considering where she lives! hahaha. heard from weiting recently too~ hope everyone's doing okay!
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