my schedule

hehe. finally LSC is over. 1 down 3 to go. ^^ hahaha. i have a feeling that i have a possibility of failing this paper. =) i hope i dont though... its hard going through it once.

consumer behavior's on friday... so i have one day to study 38 pages. also, i handed in the LTC form already, with the money as well. whether or not they let me go is another thing. hm... this is kinda weird

well... fortunately, i have a very entertaining holiday planned...

18th august: CONB Exam

23rd august: OM Exam

25th august: MMR Exam, skating with kaifon, eugene, peiwen, nick
26th august: organising surprise party for my sister
28th august to 6th sept: MILE preparation
12th sept: one night out with the girls (still thinking of new name)
and if i get in... 20th to 23rd sept: LTC
25th sept: dad's birthday

hehe. i likeee.. =)

sometimes free is not necessarily good

life is created to be filled

Takahashi Hinoki

thank you

you know, id never thought id see the day id criticise someone even more than meiling? ... it used to be funny to talk about her. i remember i still had one blog going about her... on and on and on. yes sandy i know im psychotic... but hey no one said i wasn't?

anyway... today for the sake of it i visited a few people's blogs... and i realised how funny it was. there they were talking in extravagant terms about things that they don't even understand. it certainly seemed as though they're having a BANG of a time together, so why not let's leave them that way.

recently ive been talking to xz very often, about school and everything else. i guess this is one of the incidences that made me really appreciate that she was around. i mean, yeah she can be very outspoken and sometimes say things that are harsh, though true, that you dont really want to hear. but that day, i realised what a good friend she is, and how happy i am to have her as a friend. yes i spent a lot of time complaining to her about some stuff, because we actually have a similar point of view on certain things (xz u know what i mean...) and i realised that we both have somewhat similar personalities, even though im VERY much milder and i dont talk to computers THAT much... :D

phy has been getting quite cranky recently, probably because of the exams, but heck, who isnt? the promissory estoppel thingy has got my head spinning... well koala, if you read this, be happy k? my purple glompz cannot always so cranky de... :)

as for jan, jan and i had always had much in common, more or less. we can just talk about rubbish all day long, as we have done for countless occasions. she's the one i usually talk to most, basically because she's always usually there... same CCA... same hobbies, somewhat, same hatred too... :) so in the end she finds out about most things even if i dont tell her. :P that's penguin for you!!!

also, ive had a lot of help from the SEC ppl, particularly kaifon, nick, and sze. they helped me realise one very important thing a few days ago: i dont have to prove my existance to anyone. i guess i know ive thought of it that way, but in class, sometimes i have to admit that my existance is muted by the loud speakers that people call mouths. (xz im used to u le. :P)

anyway, after this exam ends, i have much to look forward to. firstly a day iceskating with SEC, jan and friends, then we have the wonderful bbq with NUXE+sandy. :) thats an interesting name i guess...

also, i realised one very important thing: Singapore fireworks display is small compared to the other countries. kaifon just streamed me New Caledonia's (it's situated somewhere in the area of Fiji... under french sovern... not related to the New Caledonia (canada)... i had to check WIKIPEDIA just to see this.. shows you how bored i was)

well... as for LSC im currently on chapter 2... at the minors portion. hopefully my semi-photographic memory can store enough... im afraid of what might happen if it can't. hm.. one day i must go shopping and get something for xz for her bday... but i shall slowly think.

sometime in the near future

i hope to be my true self

no strings attached.

Takahashi Hinoki

weird day

haha. nick said that im open and willing to share. i just told him my entire short formed tradition with HIM... and i realised something... until nick mentioned it, i totally forgot about the past. as in i really forgot what he looked like, and the pictures i saw myself in with him didnt seem like me at all... seemed like a different life alltogether. weird... seeing pictures that i totally forgotten the feeling...

scheduled a fun ice skating trip with some of the SEC members... nick kaifon and eugene are already confirmed going with me. :) now only peiwen and janice remain to confirm. i honestly cant wait.

also, nuxe+sandy finally decided on an event to do after exams. XIUZHI quick pick a date!!! damn i cant wait, its all so fun and exciting for once im looking forward to the exams!!! ok actually its after the exams.

just checked out xxx's blog, and one line got me so upset... "yyy is great! Really, I dont know what the others think about her" gah. damn her. sometimes you have to suffer through things before you realise the truth about people, the real person behind that mask. im glad to hear that their work had problems... karma as janice calls it. i call it reap what you sow. though its kinda sad that you managed to get it fixed in the end... haix. oh well. psychotic me will find out a way in the end.

as to my previous post, thanks sze for letting me know that... makes me feel better knowing... and sorry for letting you misunderstand... no im not talking about you in the last part of that post...

yeah i managed to avoid ahemy today... :D congrates to me!!!! ^^ heh.

like a puppet

without a back bone,
without a mind of my own
merely following
losing my individuality.

like a puppet
i cry when you tell me to
i smile when you want me to
but yet inside is empty

i have no feelings of my own
no memories i wished to share
everything i had and knew
belonged to you.

and once you pulled your hand away
once the strings separated you and me
i was nothing left
but an empty shell

i try my best to help
i attempt to change what people think
but all they seem to see of me
is a puppet, waiting to be manipulated.

so what happens
when i cant resist
when all i can do is play along
i force myself to do the unthinkable
and sing another puppet song.

Recently I've always been on the verge of breaking down, it's like everything's going wrong at the same time. Family problems, friendship problems, even work problems, they all seem to collide. In the beginning, I've tried my best to keep myself sane, trying to work my way around each and everything, one at a time. But now I've come to the point where I've given up fighting, i just go along. I'm too tired: too many things have been going on.

Since DMA was over, I thought I could relax, and have a relaxing time before exams. But suddenly, someone pulls reality from under my feet, and throws it over my head like a blanket. Problems without solutions arise from that blanket, falling before my eyes. Now everything that I thought used to be important, is no longer so.

I'm sick and I'm not thinking right: all I want is for someone to tell me what to do, someone whom I trust is doing it for my sake, and not their own. But whenever I look around, there never seems to be anyone I can completely tell them the harsh truth, and letting them believe me. so I've forced myself to do so many things that I really dont want to... but its for someone else's sake, not my own.

tears have been flowing out from my eyes like they were taps that couldn't be shut. too many things have been piling up and i feel like im being squished. i was never claustrophobic, but this feeling scares me. unlike the physical feeling of constricted space, we can always overcome it by thinking of wide spaces, but when the soul feels trapped and constricted, nothing in the world can make it feel better.

people have been telling me to smile, and forget about what's currently on my shoulders, and concentrate on the exams. but i have more important things than the exam to worry about. i would go back to one of my old habits, but i promised an old friend i would never do it again. but sometimes i feel its drawing me closer and closer to that edge that i wish never to go near.

i like helping people, its not that i dont. maybe more than most other people. maybe that's why i cant stand people who cant pull even their own weight, when im trying my best not to let them down. like what i mentioned to someone, we all have strengths, only some dont shine as bright. but what i cant take it when people are certain that you're there working to beat the deadline, and yet there they are, worrying about themselves, and always asking if we can get it done or not. their laughter drives my crazy like nails on a chalkboard. when i see you perform, i'll stop talking about this. but until then... dont expect anything less than 100% sarcasm.

a few days ago i also found out that some people didnt intend for me to take this place. it really irks me knowing that she thinks im not competent enough, knowing that she thinks im not good enough for what she holds, when i was the one preparing everything for her. just because she wasn't there doesn't give her the right to say things that aren't true. "This is not a job anyone can do" she said... guess that's what i'll expect from someone who doesn't believe me when i tell her about japanese etiquette... HELLO IVE BEEN TO JAPAN BEFORE~~~ heck it's her that's making a bad impression for the school... not my problem. if you dont want me here, i can always drop out.

gone were the days when i was a puppet

i dont want to be manipulated anymore.

Takahashi Hinoki

exams left

well... the deadlines are over for now... =) all that's left is the exams... and sadly im falling sick. =( thats definitely not good. but oh well... you cant have everything in life.

we missed the deadline by about an hour today, but we're hoping that mr loh doesnt remember. sorry guys that i couldn't get it done any faster. if we get penalised im really really really sorry!!!

i came back.. and i got so tired that i fell asleep. in that period of time nicholas called me. im really curious as to why he needed me... but he said he'll sms me if he does, so its okay. but even if this is stressing... i kind of like it. i like having something important to do, something to look forward to. Life isn't just as interesting if nothing is important.

janice says that she'll treat me seoul garden when we done... in return for me doing the most of the work. but then again... like i said... sometimes work is fun. =)

if everything works out the way i want it to

life would no longer be interesting

Takahashi Hinoki

rubberband

im taking this short breather opportunity while shawn is editing the music for me to make a short post. recently i feel that im being pulled very thin. its weird, because usually i like doing work. i mean... i like having something to do with my life. but because of all the deadlines and the exams, i guess my life has to be put on hold for the time being. hopefully i do well for the exams... like i promised myself i would. but i seem to be getting worse and worse with each semester. >,<>,< im neither here nor there... and its a horrible feeling.

well got to run. shawn's just done with the editing. back to slaving over the computer. also must remind myself to print my feature writing later...

pulled thin like a rubber band

wonder when i will snap?

Takahashi Hinoki

colin parrott's in town~

colin's last day in singapore. for those of you who don't know, i went kitago, japan last year, and met colin there. he was our translator... and we had a lot of fun with him. these are a few incidents to remember him by.

• possibly the most obvious one: my tong gone. janice was looking for her kaleidoscope and suddenly muttered "my tong gone". colin caught on quick and started repeating. insert slang for canadian and you get one weird language.
  
• colin and yuge treated us to ramen. we wanted to order gyoza, but had no idea how many to order. we asked colin, he didn't know how many there was in one plate. he asked yuge, but forgot to translate. in the end, he said in english "how many are there in one plate?" yuge looked at him with a weirdo face and said "Nani?" (what)
  
• during the farewell party, while saying a thank you translation speech, colin got it wrong and said "to further enhance the relationship between kitago and sapporo" instead of kitago and singapore.
  
• this last incident only indirectly affects colin. they were at yuge's house, and colin decided to walk home (Colin's hse is on a mountain, behind my hosts', and yuge lives in an apartment below the mountain). yuge refused and suggested he drive colin up, but colin didnt want to. he insisted on walking. so yuge took out a bicycle and lent it to colin to cycle home... up the mountain...

that was the best of times in kitago. today was his last day in singapore, so we decided as a group to give him a treat and bring him around orchard. at 1pm, christina went to fetch him from the novotel, and met us at clark quay (ok fine i was late). then we took a taxi down to orchard... which colin tried to pay but was denied by christina, me and serlyn. we took him to eat thai food at the lemongrass in heeren (or lemon__ass as kaifon calls it). we ordered so much... colin ordered some unknown food that we didnt understand, but for some weird reason the waiter did... heidi and shuet ni came soon after and we had fun remembering the times we had in kitago. once again, colin wanted to pay, but christina beat him to it.

after that, we walked over to cine... played with the kiki ippatsu i saw when i was with kaifon and nick... and then we took neoprints~ hahaha colin's face looked so funny in some of them!!! after that... we sent him back to the novotel... and he wanted to treat us to starbucks, but everyone refused to order anything... :)

we then started taking photographs... and we met the vice principal of nanichi high school, the same one that we went to when we were in japan. we also saw the english teacher there. it was fun talking to them.... we also found out that when we left, our photograph appeared in the newspaper again.. xD interesting... (he gave us his name card)

we took photographs with both of them, and then serlyn, shuet ni and i went over to chinatown to buy farewell items for them. we bought a lot of junk (which included the "singapore is a fine city" shirt) and bought some items for the english teacher and the vice principal too.

then we went to eat popeyes at the airport...(im not going to mention how serlyn kept leading us to the wrong place) we were so full. then we were joined by clement and xiao ran... after wards we met colin again... and we gave him the stuff. he kept saying "oh guysss..." like we didn't need to... but either way. the vice principal was pretending to cry when we gave him his.

later, colin lost his ticket... he thinks he left it on the plane... hahaha. but in the end he managed to get another one, so there was no harm done. serlyn made a comment about how colin was blurrer than yuge.. quite amazing really. we said goodbye to them, took more photos, and left.

and here i am. the photographs i wont upload here. i'll put it on the miyazaki rios website. www.rios.2ya.com go see it if you really want to. :) was fun hanging out with colin... havent seen him in so long. sadly janice couldn't make it cos her friend had some problem... must remember to tell her the funny incidents that happened. colin coming back reminds me how much i miss my hosts... and the days i spent with them. hope that this letter will get a reply this time... :)

some memories were meant to be forgotten

but these weren't any of them.

Takahashi Hinoki

outing with kfc and nicky

today's possible highlight was that i went to orchard with nick and kaifon. okay actually i didnt plan on meeting them, but going home felt like a horrible idea.

anyway... i met them at Taka... walked twice around Kino... >< nicholas kept stopping for aeroplane books.

then we headed to heeren, to look at CDs (kaifon wanted to buy a "my globe" cd... but they din have the latest one) and to look through action city (in which kaifon was upset about not being able to buy the entire collection of the latest series of dogs, and nicholas was upset that they didn't have his batman figurine)

after that we headed to cine... hm... we walked around aimlessly for a while... (i saw a poor guy struggling to open the door... i was kind enough to open it for him... nick and kaifon both said i just threw him into embarrassment ^^V )

nick actually proposed to take neoprints, but we didn't in the end... dont know why. we were trying to decide what to eat when suddenly kaifon's eyes went O.O... (note that the eyes are only this small cos this is the largest blogger had to let me use) he saw Hard Gay's Kiki Ippatsu there... they were so amazed... they even considered buying it for our clubhouse... $60... rich ppl xD...

we ate at some hongkong place next to the neoprint machine. oh wait i revise that. kaifon and nicholas ate at some hongkong place... i drank some weirdo lychee drink that tasted more like lemon tea with lychee... treated by kaifon. said its for helping him with stuff... arigatou~

anyway after that we went to see naruto stuff... nick was so tempted into buying ichigo's zambakuto... but didnt in the end. we made a small round around the arcade, before heading off towards plaza singapura.

at plaza singapura, we didn't really do much. they stopped by so i could use the toilet to wash my i-dont-know-why-they-were sticky hands... then we headed to cathay.

at cathay, nick kept "spying" cute girls. xD something about 5 oclock, 6 oclock, and whether kaifon could "confirm target". we walked around an adidas shop, where nick and i were commenting that the two boys in front of us who were playing some game looked like they were aheming themselves from the back.

after that, we went up to the cinema... took a seat and started crapping. kaifon showed me some video that was edited of jack sparrow and william turner kissing. the editing was very good. i tested my skills on nick... he gave me opposite answers. :) got kaifon to try reading the first two pages of da vinci code... he gave up and passed it on to nick. then after that we headed home... :) oh yeah i neglected to mention that nick got a call from SOMEONE (I dont know who) but he seemed so happy he was swaying as he walked. LITERALLY.

seeing is believing

so what happens when you neglect to see?

Takahashi Hinoki

beliefs

today was another weeeeeeeeird day. dont know what exactly happened. i had fun talking to mr lee today. missed him a lot, and finally saw him and talked to him. phyllis was there too, cos she desperately needed help, and decided to ask mr lee for help.

dont know, recently my mind is in a tornado... dont really know what im thinking anymore. part of me doesn't even know what im trying to say, what im trying to feel, or what im trying to explain. its like an entire circle that goes round and round, and never seems to end. sometimes i dont even know what my mind's trying to say... its topsy turvy at this point in time.

different people have different opinions i guess... but sometimes when those opinions crash and burn, there's nothing that stops the two from going down, fighting for what they believe in. im no different. if i believe in it, i will fight for it.

anyway... back to my point. i have begun to realise that the world is spinning out from under my feet again... and i dont exactly understand why this is happening. im trying my best to look forward, and attempt to forget what's past, and its starting to work, possibly because of new people in my life, that have helped me to get over it faster.

i just hope that my other friends, who are experiencing the same dilemma as me, know what they want, and stay true to themselves. as long as their happiness is at risk, it's not worth it.

lastly, deadlines are coming up, and i still have a lot to go before i can finally say i can finish the project. the group's marks are weighing on my shoulders, and its quite heavy... i know i must do my best, but my work just never seems to be good enough. but ultimately, i have to get it done... or i'll never live to see the next morning.

strive harder to achieve what you believe in

don't ever give up.

Takahashi Hinoki

campy!!!

hai. i just came back from camp. :) nothing of special interest as we spent most of the time supervising the kids, as szeyuan called them. however, we did make weird photos every now and then. :) it was... would you say... an EYE OPENER... and ear opener too. saw a few things... *ahem ahem* but for privacy's sake im not gonna mention what i saw here. the people involved already know of it. but it was an interesting experience...

at first the main committee met at around 5pm... we goofed off by setting up laptops and psp's etc etc. then we settled the food and stuff before picking up the chiba batch. only 8 of them appeared.

then... we played a few games with them, and let them have dinner. at that point in time, i saw a few shadows rushing across from where i was standing, and rushing by. i could feel a small cold draft of frozen air as this happened. it all happened so fast, that i couldn't take it. i was in deep shock, and ran downstairs to hide.

janice and sze came down soon after. sze thought it was a problem with my currently non-existant boyfriend. :) janice guessed what happened, and lent me her cross necklace to protect myself. she kept convincing me to go up, and not be alone. then kaifon and eugene came back with the water, and kaifon stayed downstairs to comfort me too.

thanks, guys, for comforting me when i needed it.

then they went to bathe. hahahaha. eugene attempted to hug everyone that just bathed to get them dirty again. kaifon came back with weird weird spikey hair that was kind of similar to hitsugaya toushirou. but i didnt take a photograph of it... sadly.

anyway, after that we played truth or dare as soon as we left them be. weird questions came out: measurements for kaifon, eugene, nicholas, virginity questions etc... poor kaifon kept spinning himself. then eugene decided to choose dare: and was dared to kiss kaifon. kaifon defended himself by attempting to kick eugene in the unspeakables.

then kaifon, me, and szeyuan went to see the chiba batch to see what they were doing. we supervised them until around 3... where kaifon and i were left while the rest went to bed. by the time kaifon and i went back in attempt to sleep, it was too cold. that was around 3am in the morning. kaifon and i decided to camp outside instead. i didnt sleep, and ended up reading. kaifon, for some odd reason, started sleeping in weird positions, and waking up at every half an hour. it wasnt until about 5 am before he could sleep more than half an hour...hahahaha

some things mean more to me than just living and dying

thank you to those who have helped me gone through these,

Takahashi Hinoki

touch the spirits

well today is the first day of the lunar 7th month, and ive decided im going to mention a odd thing that happened to me yesterday.

now before i say this, let me first say that I believe in oddities and legends such as vampires, ghosts and witches. legends existed, but science dubbed them unbelievable, because they could never prove the existance of these creatures.

yesterday while having a class-meeting, my friend felt some presence of a spirit lurking in the immediate vacinity. around the same time i started to get a terrible headache, in which during that time odd pictures came into my mind: pictures that i knew were not from my memory.

this isn't the first time i've experienced such things... occasionally i do get weird images while coping with a serious headache, images that were so odd and sometimes gruesome, that i knew could not be my own.

i never considered myself someone who could feel spirits, but recently ive been getting these more often. is it because of the 7th month? or simply because i'm concentrating more whenever these happens? or is it simply because i believe? i myself am not sure.

but soon after that headache, ive been seeing odd things. if i said blobs you'd be thinking im nuts. but its not really a blob. its a hazy atmosphere that hovers around like a spirit. i dont know if im imagining things or if im starting to see... but oddly enough im not afraid. there are worst things to be afraid of than spirits.

dont be afraid of death: it's life that you should be afraid of.

death is nothing but an obstacle. it cannot hurt anyone.

Takahashi Hinoki

investigations

out of random chance, i decided to look around at our class' blog. actually i had to do this because i had to link to my mortal's, but i couldn't find anyone with her add... so link link link i went.

anyway, i had contact from my angel today... simple little message.

"hey, haha so late. so you're my mortal and i have to find out more info about you. wait, do you have any idea who am i? :D regards, your angel? -- Angel Immortal"

i havent exactly figured out who he/she is yet... but heck, that's their presentation, not mine. :D as for my mortal, ive found a little information about her. though i believe its not enough, i believe its a start. i mean... i really didnt know her before this... and now i feel that i knew her a little more. like ms peter says, im NOT going to talk to people around her to find out more about her. thanks to sandy for any extra information that you can give me. :) well i think for one week this much information is survivable. :) wonder how the others are doing... hm...

mysteries were never supposed to be unvieled

they were just supposed to remain mysteries, hidden in time.

Takahashi Hinoki

birthday celebration

today was another weird day. started off going to class, ate bread with sandy... normal stuff. xiuzhi overslept the mrt and ended up 2 stops away from where she started... silly girl. phyllis was sick... hope you get better koala~

then janice and i went to the clubhouse, collected some more indem forms, and then headed to daiso after collecting money from kaifon to buy camp stuff (though we got kinda addicted unto the bear making game, the beer making game, and we finished the huntsville~ BIG BOSS!!!

at daiso... we bought some stuff, including my mom's birthday present. then we fooled around a little playing with some of the stuff they had there.

janice then met, if i remember right, ashley and ehhh... okay i dont remember her name... starts with A. :D arisu... ariel... anita? no i dont think so. then i left for my mom's birthday dinner.

birthday dinner~ my mom's birthday. my sis bought her a pair of sunflower earings, and i bought her some flowers and aroma stuff. smells v nice. :)

dreams were meant to be just dreams

but today they came true

Takahashi Hinoki

hai

well... starting to get stressed all over again. not that stress is bad... its just that... hm... stress sometimes can be good if you can get someone to share it with you.

im starting to get used to sandy being around so often. its kinda fun having her around. honestly, i dont know what's lydia's problem, seeing that she has obviously something against sandy. after reading both their blogs, i cant help but feel that lydia's post was definitely targetted at sandy.

well... not my business anyway. today im feeling kinda loopy~ hahahaha. my mortal hasnt replied me... =( ahhh well. you cant have everything~

Takahashi Hinoki

weird mp3 player...

i have the weirdest mp3 player ever. its a headphone problem... but instead of having a sound vs no sound effect, i have a difference of whether the lead singer is there or not. sometimes, its like all i can hear is the "echo" of the background singers, with the background music. but if all goes well i can hear everything. penguinny says its cool, but it does get irritating after a while.

today all i did was take some test. got a 26/40 for open book. hahahahhaa... well i think its good. its a 20 min test. :) heee~!!

also, for the NYAA that took place today, sadly, only 2 people turned up, and out of 2, only one was a stranger. its like really sad... but poor angel had to do the briefing anyway. sze asked me to sign it, but im not sure whether i want to... quite a lot of committment and such...

sometimes i feel that im alone in the world

but whenever that happens, im reminded of my friends.

Takahashi Hinoki

more conflicted

recently life has become more conflicted than usual. different people have different tastes i suppose. i dont know what it means... but i guess i dont want to think too much into it. like phyphy said, im big on friendship, but i dont do pity well. guess its a part of me that i dont really like.

anyway... with all these things coming up... im beginning to wonder what the other class people are thinking about this. its not that i bother whether its good or bad impressions, and i honestly dont care what they say, im just curious as to the extent they know our side.

hai... wakarimasen... sometimes life is so much more complicated, until i miss the secondary school days. i miss the times when the biggest problems were your friends hating you. nope as u go further, the problems obviously increase too.

but having friends like janice, xiuzhi, phyllis and to a certain extent, sandy, kinda makes life easier. i mean... we do have different opinions... but ultimately we're great friends. we work well together, albeit with ups and downs. but thats normal in any case.

just when you think that life has nothing more to hold

it pulls the world from beneath your feet, and shows you something new.

Takahashi Hinoki

rest time

thank goodness DMA is over. i finally have time to sleep... =) yeah im glad that Mr James liked the design... not really much effort on my part. i had to get xiuzhi and shawn to draw it like 5 or 6 times... and then Janice's printer was crappy half the time... but glad she let us use it as and when we needed. better crappy than ntn!!! hahha kidding. i dont have a printer.... so im not going to complain.

anyways... now that DMA is partly over... i have to worry about OM... gah. why all the projects clump together. =X oh well.... class conflicts adding to a lot of problems. =( dont really like it but what the heck. if that's what other people choose to do with their lives i got nothing else to says.

dreams dont really exist

if they did then i wouldnt be living in hell now

Takahashi Hinoki

sunday doesnt feel like sunday

i miss normal sundays. today i spent the day editing photographs... weird kinda sunday, but since i volunteered, i cant exactly let my team down now. :P just afraid of carrying my laptop all the way to sch tomorrow. maybe i leave it in the clubhse until wednesday or something. :D ahahha. kaifon mentioned something about sze yuan saying all the MC (thats including janice) go out some time this week. personally i couldn't be happier. too much stuff to do, so a break is definitely a good thing. now that my initial d marathon is currently over, my bleach aint uploaded yet, so im stuck with nothing to watch. i feel that these few days i get upset easily, but i figure that's because i hate being stressed when i'm stressed. :X i don't feel so good... headache... ahhh wellies. that's life. its gonna get worse anyway. but least its not a pile at a time.

i just read my mei's post... something about gilbert's voice being manly... :D shawnnnnnn.... too bad he couldn't see it for himself. hahaha.

anyway... im done with the 5/6 rooms. hopefully janice remembers to scan the left overs in. and i need someone to draw the introduction and everything... credits are no problem... just type type only. :P other than that we're done. !!! our logo sooo cute.. thanks to phyllis...

these are only some of the photos that shawn and xiuzhi drew... i put these up cos we're not using them...

mr pang's afro head tree... :X my wonderful coloring skills... no not really im kidding. my coloring skills arent that amazing. any child could have done this.

all in all... im beginning to dread school... oh let it be over!!!

im beginning to forget myself

i don't know who i am anymore

Takahashi Hinoki

otanjoubi omedeto!

i gave my mei her birthday present today... a blogskin of mr byakuya-sama... or her bya-chan as she so affectionately calls him. i cant recall hw long i spent on her blog skin... but heck it looks better than mine. suggests that i probably should edit mine soon too.

the bloggy skin looks smth like this. for the real version... go ask my mei for it. xD

gah. anyway... im starting to get a little irritated, what with things going on in school and at home. firstly in school because of all the projects coming up, and people giving me dates for meetings when i already have plans. whatever happened to "can you make it on this date or that?" now it's just become "we're meeting on this date to finalise this thing." my point of i already got other plans on doesn't even stand anymore. not to mention the fact that i lost my ezlink recently and am seriously broke, until the case that i dont even have money to top up my ezlink with. its seriously wasting cash that i have to travel on weekends too. ok at this point anyone would probably say something like "but the deadline is coming up. we don't have a choice." but this isn't about a choice or not. this is more about common courtesy. just like when someone else has things on, we try our best not to clash with that. we at the very least ask if they can make it, and if not, we either plan around it or we have no choice but to leave one or two out. but to entirely just tell someone that you're meeting on that date sorta gets rid of the fact that i cant exactly say no. damn its getting on my nerves really badly.

you said you understood, and maybe you really do.

but this just goes to show... that you may understand people. but im not one of them.

Takahashi Hinoki

ventriliquist act

hey guys. meet singapore's newest ventriliquiest act:

mr shawn and...

his wonderful "puppet"... mr gilbert..

okay... actually its not a ventriliquist act... seeing that phyllis was the one that was moving gilbert's mouth. anyway... what happened is that they came over to my place to do DMA... and they ended up christianing my worm/frog gilbert... :X no idea why gilbert.
anyway... we managed to "finish" DMA... considerably... in a sense that we have a concept and everything. now only the storyboard remains... :P



this is their performance... :P yepyep. anyway... thats' about it for weekends... have to go design DMA now... :P cant disclose too much. :X